Conquer your fears.
A collab between Libra and Inzane
Summary: Monoka requests training on how to combat Genjutsu, so Kazumo tries his best to teach her the basic.
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Arriving at the location the Monoka girl spoke up but arriving slightly earlier, he would sit down leaning back against the tree. He was wondering just how on earth he a Genin planned to teach a Chunnin to shit themselves less when in a genjutsu. Not even a couple of weeks ago did he not just learn about the basics of Genjutsu. He guess he could start there, but really he wasn't the best choice for genjutsu training, well in her case genjutsu defense. Thinking about it he could have probably came a little late and still have been here first, she didn't seem to be the speedy type. More so the power type, which only made him wonder why all these women were into being muscularly built.
Monaka stretched her arms up as she walked. Oy... Was she late? She was sure it was ten or something when she left, right? Yeaaahhh... She decided to not bring her hulking mass of innocence and potential destruction, since he may attack Kazumo if she ended up doing a lot of screaming. She skipped doing any physical training so she'd have all her energy for this. Walking to the area they had disembarked the day before, she lit up when she saw him; which was actually only five feet away.
"Heeeyyy! Kazzy!" She called to him. She never called anyone by their first name, much less nicknamed. She only did it to people she respected or liked.
"Was I late?" She actually looked much nicer without a bunch of mud and sweat all over her body.
As he waited she appeared walking towards him less muddy and sweaty than before which was fine and dandy, so he waved but was meet with silence until she we within reaching distance really. Then she shouted a nickname at him which startled him at the sudden call to the point he was quiet as he stared at her.
"H-hey Monoka.... And no your about on time.... He replied but was now curious just how blind she was. He wasn't that far away when she shouted his eardrum out, her eyes must have been damaged more than he thought. Yet she still wanted to be a shinobi despite sight being a very big assest. He patted the ground in front of him but then wondered if she even saw that, he kind of hoped she wasn't that blind.
"Oh. Great!" She said, seeing as his hand went to pat the ground. She couldn't properly catch the patting but she knew what he meant. Walking over and sitting down in the spot, she sat criss-cross with her hands on her thighs.
"So, what should I know first?" She said, leaning in with a curious look. With closer inspection, one could notice her left eye was extremely out of focus, pointing more to the ground, while her right eye was pointed directly at him.
When she sat down she asked the obvious question of what she needed to know first which made him hold up his finger to signal to wait a second.
"Well as my sensei asked me, what do you know about Genjutsu? That will help judge where you are with it. He asked smiling slightly as he felt a bit happy at the thought of him teaching someone.
Monaka stared at him absentmindedly as he asked the question that his sensei had asked him.
"Uhhhhh..." She said with a rather long tone of confusion,
"...That it... Makes you see and feel stuff you wouldn't like..?" God that was half assed. She wanted to punch herself in the face with how stupid she sounded. She turned away quietly to express her embarassment.
Her explanation made him silent as he thought of a way to explain it. She pretty much knew nothing about it...That was fine though, she didnt do genjutsu but studying it a bit more would have been helpful.
"I see.... Well first off genjutsu consist of Yin and Yang chakra. Yin is the image and Yang is also the image and pretty much everything else. Like Tao Tao for example. Just himself would be Yin chakra, but if you add Yang chakra to give him his personality and sound you can then make him move around and act just like he regularly would. Get it so far?"
"Uh yeah... Kinda." She had a little bit of a puzzled look, but she mostly got it,
"... Complicated." She said under her breath,
"A-anyway. Go on." She sat up straight as to continue listening.
He tapped his head to see what bits he could use to explain it to someone with no talent in it. He had to remove a few ways that would be helpful when using it.
"Well there are several ways to escape a genjutsu, remembering the basics of Yin and Yang help, but can you name the ways you can escape a genjutsu?"
She slowly shook her head,
"Nope... Don't really know shit."
He took a deep breath in at her reply, it was obvious someone fell asleep during those parts of the classes.
"Okay, well the obvious release yet knowing the Yin and Yang helps your further when releasing it. Then there is powerful smells, from reality of course. So if Tao Tao has bad gas, then that could be helpful. You can also have an ally pour their chakra into your body to disrupt your flow and break it that way. Don't worry about them knowing or not, they will. You can also face it head on, kinda of risky but sometimes you have too. In the one I put you in, fighting it would have been hard. Yet the advantage of knowing the basic helps strengthen your genjutsus and your defense against them."
"Hmm. Alright." She mumbled,
"I think I get it." She cracked her neck,
"If that's all, let's do this." She pumped her fist,
"B-but if there's more just tell me... It can wait, it can wait." She dropped her hand and quickly composed herself.
She was excited to get started but really there was a mountain load of things to learn about Genjutsu, but he had to see if she truly got it. So like Aiko did with him he will give her examples. Holding out his hands for her to see he moved his index fingers to the right and the blades shot out. He scrapped them against each other creating that annoying metal scrapping sound before retracting them.
"So what was the Yin and Yang?"
"Uhh..." She sat for a minute to think. The Yin was the... Image, right?
"Okay um... The Yin was the blades..." She went into another few minutes of hmming, before she figured it out,
"And the Yang was them moving and the noise?" She said it as if she wasn't very sure if it was right.
Kazumo smiled and nodded
"You got most of it, but I would also include my fingers moving, they sent the blades out. Every bit of detail could matter greatly, yet you got it for the most part Monoka. Now a more tricker example, one you would have to imagine happening. Imagine a Fire ball coming at you. Can you decribe what would be Yin and Yang about it?"
Her expression dropped into a little frown with the next question.
"U-uh..." This was hard! It took her ten minutes of thinking until she said the first thing,
"Th-the Yin is... The fireball itself..." She seemed to be, rather dramatically, in pain about thinking about it,
"And the Yang... The Yang... Is the... Heat or something?"
"Again very close, but wouldnt a fireball, mostly a offensive one make a certain sound? Yang can be tricky and specific on what the subject is. Take the ocean, the sound of waves crashing against the rocks, the smell it gives off. The foam, every detail could be every important. So I'm going to try a genjutsu on you, not the one I did yesterday though. If it gets too much I'll release it okay?"
He would then do the handseals neccessary and would stare into her eyes, they would then both appear among a burning building. Kazumo would stare at the fire before looking at Monoka and see what she would do.
Monaka nodded. This time... She knew what to do. Sort of...
Looking around, seeing that she had been taken to a burning building. She let in a few deep breaths. Okay, okay, not that bad... Now what t- Wait... She could see just fine...
"No!" Her eyes widened as she heard that familiar, that terrifyingly familiar scream.
It was her mother's scream. She saw what she was screaming at; her father being crushed, by something she was unable to see. No... Not this again...
It was the night of her fourth birthday all over again. No, no... No... It wasn't, it was just a Genjutsu, ri-
She saw her mother impaled once more before her very eyes. She began to hyperventilate, having her hands on her face. She felt the sting of pain when something scratched her eyes, until the scene then repeated itself. She couldn't calm down, she knew it was all fake but she couldn't calm down...
"Daddy please no!" She shouted as she watched her father crushed for the third time by the unseen object.
"MOMMY! MOMMY!" She cried out on the fourth and fifth times. She had forgotten all about it being fake.
Kazumo watched the burning building start to fall to pieces and witnessed the mother get impaled. He never really knew how his own mother died, yet she did. He couldn't know the feeling but it must hurt a lot to see your own parents die before your eyes and not be capable of doing nothing. So when she started pleading and crying he bent down and looked at her.
"Don't lose yourself to your emotions, they can be powerful and sometimes that good but it can be negative in this case it is." He spoke to her yet what would happen would be the event playing again, starting with the mothers screams. Just like last time Kazumo stared at her to see what she would do.
Monaka felt like throwing up with seeing this scene over and over. She was so small, so weak, she couldn't do anything but cry until she was blinded again. She kept being carried back to that spot over and over, until she heard Kazumo's voice. She snapped out of her delusion of emotions, and remembered what was going on. It was a Genjutsu, how could she forget that? She didn't even realize that it was going over and over again. What did Kazumo say to do again? Ugh it didn't come to mind... Maybe calming down first would help. She took several deep breaths, shutting her eyes to shield herself from the scarring imagery.
"It's not real... It's... Not real..." She spoke to herself, trying to fight it off.
"Hiding yourself won't stop this from happening Monoka. You can't just cover your eyes and wish it away. Its happened and is happening again. Think about it good and hard Monoka. Kazumo said watching the mother get impaled again, it was almost making himself sick watching it over and over again. Yet this wasn't hurtful for him to witness as inhumane as it was to think, it was her memory all he could do was see it unfold.
Her breathing was shaky and unsteady as she held her head in her hands, weeping profoundly.
"Make it stop... Make it stop... I don't want to see it anymore!" She begged,
"I don't want to see this again! I'm so tiny and weak and-a-and I couldn't do anything!" She yelled in admitance,
"I don't want it to happen again! I don't want to see it ever again! I can't accept it so why can't it just go away?!"
"Monoka..... Yes you may be a child now, but you have free reign you know? You aren't bound like you were in my last genjutsu. You might not be able to change what was done, yet you are strong enough to make this stop. Remember what i said? If you face it head on you can break it that way. So what if nothing ever happened?" Kazumo asked and when the scene replayed Kazumo grabbed her little hand and pulled her away before she could get her scars.
"See? Altered." He would let go of her hand rush over to the mother and pull her away before she got impaled.
"Another thing altered." Kazumo would then vanish from sight and come back with her father.
"Altered. This was something I too had to learn, while painful and hurts to see. Sometimes the best course of action is to face it head on.
Monaka felt her heart rolling up her throat as she witnessed the events actually being stopped. The little her only stood there, quiet and confused. She had that feeling again, after so long.
She felt small. Very, very small.
"... Just end the Genjutsu or whatever..." She said with her head bent down and her fists clenched.
He stared and listened to her request and just like that the scene faded and it was just them again. They were back in the woods she was older again and her eye sight returned to what it was.
"I apologize. I wnated to see if you would be capable of breaking it. I really dont get to choose with that Genjutsu, it just brings up truamatic experiences." Kazumo said less shooken up than the last time he did the genjutsu on her. It might have been because she was agreeing to it this time.
The girl had broke eye contact the moment the Genjutsu was released.
"It's fine... I just... Hate the feeling I have whenever I remember it." She crossed her arms once more, but seeming rather tense,
"Sometimes it just feels like... No matter how hard I push... I'll always feel that way..." She exhaled softly through her nostrils,
"Small. Insignificant." It would be a total surprise she even knew that word.
"A normal feeling, even I felt slightly bad witnessing it." He stated and listened to her reasons which made him rub his head.
"Again thats normal, yet you won't ever know what you can change unless you do push. The past can't be changed as much as we would love to do such. Yet we shouldn't let those experiences hold us back. I can't say I know the pain of watching my family die, for what I know my mother died from a sickness. Yet as heartless as it sounds, I can't let it affect me I have very little memories of the time when I was young. So instead of regretting what could have been, I push on. Its all we can do no matter how futile it is." He explained softly in the only way he really knew how. He wasn't one for trying to cheer people up, he didn't have enough experiences with it. All he knew was what his father said to do. If someone felt bad just say whats on your mind to them.
"Yeah yeah I know... I know but..." She gritted her teeth,
"Normally i'd be fine and not think about it, but when it's just right there... In front of me... I can't contain myself." She sighed,
"I don't know what I want to do about how I feel about it. But... I just push away that feeling of tininess away with training, to feel powerful..." She shut her eyes,
"I didn't even think that feeling was still in me."
He nodded along as she explained but still the real world was unforgiving It wouldnt stop to please her.
"So what about a scenario instead, if it was someone else yet it transpired the same way yours did. Would you cower and wish it away?"
"No... Of course I wouldn't." Her lip quivered,
"Not to sound selfish, but if it was that way, it isn't something happening to me..." She felt a little ashamed of how she worded it, but it was true.
"Then as hard as it may be, pretend that it wasn't you in that fire. Pretend it was another girl simply scared. You are much stronger than you were back then. You didn't make it to Chuunin cause they pity you. You are a chuunin cause they felt you were worthy of being one. I can't tell you how to live your life but if you want my opinion. If you don't overcome your past, it will be your demise." Kazumo stated a bit harshly but true in his word. If he was an enemy he wouldn't have been so kind and just let it end like that.
"C-can we just try with that other one..?" She frowned, acting like she completely disregarded everything he just said. Really, she mentally heeded every word and was going to think about it later.
"..... We can, yet do know you will get no choices from your enemies. And they will do a lot more fucked up things with your past than I currently can." Sighing he did the handseals and stare into her eyes and she would then be transported to that black voidless world where she was chained up and incapable of moving. Unlike last time where the clones talked before attacking, all four of them in unison stabbed her in the stomach multiple times, before ripping the flab of flesh open and holding it open with needles. Of course her intensies would try to fall out but the needles kept that from happening.
" Oh~! So thats what color someones intestines are! I wonder.... does it hurt when I stab them?" The clone of Kazumo asked before ramming a needle right on into her intensies like it was paper.
When the Genjutsu started, she didn't have the time to build a mental barrier. Struck so soon, damn Kazumo... She coughed what she thought was blood when her stomach area was stabbed. Damn was the pain bad... It was fake. Facing it head on... What should she do here with that?
"Uh... Hey... So." She breathed out,
"Having fun... There?"
When she coughed up the blood it splattered on the clones chest staining the jacket in a red color. However before they stabbed again she asked a question which prompted them to stop and look at her oddly. They just stared at her before one looked down and rammed his hand into her open stomach and looked back up.
"A bit~." The clone spoke before pulling his hand hand covered in her blood and patted her face.
"What about you bat girl? You having fun?" The clone asked and looked into her eyes with a smile while the other three clones proceeded to stab her in the back one after the other.
She grunted when the needles were driven into her back. Doing something else other than focusing on the pain seemed to help.
"I can still see, sort of. And don't do that eyeball shit again." She chuckled,
"Not that attractive to tear a lady's eyes out. And to be honest i'd rather be out of these chains without your buddies stabbing me."
The clone started laughing and so did the others as well besides the two holding the chains. The one with the blood splattered on him simply shrugged.
"Oh I could always do it again~ Yet since you were kind to ask, I wont do it this time. But the chains... they stay... Or I rip your eyeballs out again and I remove the chains? Oh suck wonderful choices! And if I might say Im a pretty attractive guy, I just.... kill it with the ladies~" After saying that he grabbed a needle and pierced it right on through the nose so it came out horizontally.
"See I'm so nice I gave you a free piercing!" Kazumo said laughing before he yanked it out horizontally and tore her nose right on open.
"Hah. Yeah. Puns. That's a pretty shitty one." She said while rolling her eyes, shouting when her nose was pieced yet again. Damn was it hard to ignore the pain... At least she knew what getting stabbed and stuff felt like without it actually happening.
"Not so nice since you're a total pussy." She scoffed, panting,
"Havin' me all tied up in chains while you pierce me up? That's a total dick move. What, scared i'll tear your natters off?" She taunted.
the clone chuckled again before giving a sly grin.
"Careful what you say. Those words may just be the next place I stab. I doubt you want me shoving a needle up your ass either. I'm kind of twitchy and move around wayyyy to much." So when she taunted, the clone frowned and placed a needle near her left eye.
"Someones being a little cocky bitch huh~? Gonna tear my natters off huh? What are you a freaking child? Never heard the word testicles or penis before! Oh look were playing the eye game again! The clone said a little irritated and slammed the needle right on through her eye and yanked it out. The clone then smirked and had another clone pry her mouth open, and simply nodded at her signaling that yes he was going to do what she thought. The clone would then place the eye right in her mouth and the clone would force her to chew it. Yet if she was paying attention she would noticed that the chains hold was weakening and that she could actually wiggle around now.
"Someone seems a little troubled." She smiled with that whisper. She was getting to them, she knew. She screamed through gritted teeth when her eye was once again yanked out, having a sick feeling in her stomach. She had to ride this out... Oh, what were they gonna do? Oh... She felt her eye slithering around in her mouth. Made her feel even sicker when they forced her to chew, but she swallowed it to just get it over with.
"Yuck... Tastes like fleshy grapes without the sweetness..." She gagged, feeling now that she could wiggle in the chains. Hmm, that's nice to know that she has more freedom with it.
"I think thats you, I aint tied up with an open stomach, a torn off nose, a missing eye and a missing ear." The last part might have confused her but it would become clear when he placed a hand on her head and would start stabbing at the ear until it was so badly skewered it no longer even looked like such. He would then grab it and grin at her evily as a clone opened her mouth.
"You are going to have some painful ass shits." The clone said jamming the ear into her mouth and once again forcing her to chew, the bones cracking in her mouth would make such a painful sound. Yet with the clones more aggressive nature he was slowly making the ones holding the chain grow an even loose grip.
She guessed why he said that last part; it was obvious he'd tear her ear off when he said so. She gagged when the ear was shoved into her mouth and being forced to chew it. Just swallow it... Just swallow... She painfully swallowed the disgusting-tasting part.
"Nah, I don't think so. This isn't real, anyway." She smiled,
"So no painful shits for me, I guess."
The clone frowned and this time instead of stabbing punched her across the face.
"Gah you're no fun at all! Fine you want to fight with those wounds right? Well how about one fucking more before you hike up your panties and fight?" The clone seethed before slamming another needle through her right eye and left it there. The chains would then become loose, yet she would instead find herself back in reality, with Kazumo waving at her.
"So... did you have fun?" It was kind of a smartass question. Hence him smiling at her knowing full well it probably wasn't at all enjoyable.
"Yet you got the right idea, facing it head on does work sometimes yet not all the time. You probably could have broken that with the whole release thing.
She was only smiling at the clone weakly, knowing she won this time. She flinched when her right eye was penetrated, but settled down when the illusion faded and saw Kazumo waving.
"Maybe." She said with her eyebrows raised. She then chuckled and rubbed the back of her head.
"Eh, again. Not that broad in this area." She said,
"Buuuuut. Clone you's kinda messed up. Any idea why?" She snorted softly,
"I mean i'd totally go on an alcohol run with em at the legal age and if he were less crazy but yeesh."
At her question he kind of frowned figuring she might ask but also felt ashamed at what the reason was.
"Well... I just cant find it in me to torture people I like, so creating clones with their own personality is the best option for me. I don't get to stab people I like, but I still get to do the genjutsu. Thats something I have to work on, as Im sure I would gladly do it to people I dislike." Kazumo replied looking at the ground rubbing the back of his head before looking up. Well anyway if you are ever in a genjutsu just remember what Yin and Yang about them. Also remember that you shouldn't always face it head on."[/color]
Monaka nodtded. She remembered how... Different the two Genjutsu were. She did vaguely touch the subject, but she thought it was all in the same ballpark. Damn was she wrong...
"Gotcha, thank you." She got up and then began her walk away,
"See you around tournament time, I guess. Though if you still wanna do training and stuff after, just tell me." She wavered in the spot for a moment, smiling such a gentle smile for someone like her, and heading off.
Kazumo smiled and nodded standing up himself.
"No problem, yet I really would go to someone more experienced for this kind of training. Like I said I'm still learning about it myself." He then paused in silence when she mentioned doing some training or stuff later to which he shrugged.
"Sure maybe I'll have you teach me about hand to hand combat some time. See you at the tournament." Kazumo said waving her goodbye before crossing his arms as she left.
"You really need to let go of the past though Monka...." [/spoili]