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"I-- I don't know if I can go, Natalia."
The words were a stuttered whisper to the advisor as they stood just beyond the outside kitchen door. The dawning realisation of what the results of their espionage could mean caused Carina to waver in her decision to see for herself where her husband intended to go. Natalia's words, regarding Sven's sickened panic and the fact that she had never seen him in such a state... they didn't bring her much hope. She could feel ice begin to tingle within her palms, all the way up to the tips of her fingers, like pinpricks along the nerves. And that was only with the fear of the worst possible outcome.
"I-- I'm scared of... what if I lose it? What if I lose control, Natalia? Complete control. I've-- I've only done that once and that... that was when he hurt me." Carina looked down at her hands as she held them out flat in the air, a slight tremble to them as she referenced the day Sven burnt her (albeit accidentally). "What if... what if that happens again? What if he-- I don't want to hurt you because you were... nearby."
She knew that, out of the two of them, she was the one that had a tight leash on her powers compared to Sven. His flames sneaked out at the slightest hint of his anger, while for her... it took for her to be at breaking point. As was the time she had been locked away in her room after the attempt on Sven's life. She didn't count that as a loss of complete control. It seeped out, yes, but it retracted when she wished for it too. The day that Sven physically burnt her, the ice that had expelled from her barely had any of her control. It engulfed everything, except Sven, and only because she had an ounce of her mind left to think of him through the pain that had been inflicted.
"...I don't want to hurt him in the moment." She breathed after a moment, hands clenching tightly into fists, her nails biting into the skin of her palm. "And I... I wouldn't be able to trust myself around her. Not if it's... not if it's what we suspect."
Carina knew she had to be honest with Natalia. She had no qualms murdering five unknown men who had attacked her and threatened to take away her unborn child. This woman was knowingly ruining a family, breaking apart a marriage, taking away her husband and threatening her kingdom. This woman had caused not just the potential death of her marriage, but the countless, unnecessary civilian deaths of those in the village where a battalion was stationed.
"The last thing I want is to leave you to do this alone. I want to go with you, see it for myself. See it so he can't worm his way out with more lies if it is all what we think," she swallowed thickly, "But I... I'm not sure if I can-- if I can trust myself, Natalia."
The words were a stuttered whisper to the advisor as they stood just beyond the outside kitchen door. The dawning realisation of what the results of their espionage could mean caused Carina to waver in her decision to see for herself where her husband intended to go. Natalia's words, regarding Sven's sickened panic and the fact that she had never seen him in such a state... they didn't bring her much hope. She could feel ice begin to tingle within her palms, all the way up to the tips of her fingers, like pinpricks along the nerves. And that was only with the fear of the worst possible outcome.
"I-- I'm scared of... what if I lose it? What if I lose control, Natalia? Complete control. I've-- I've only done that once and that... that was when he hurt me." Carina looked down at her hands as she held them out flat in the air, a slight tremble to them as she referenced the day Sven burnt her (albeit accidentally). "What if... what if that happens again? What if he-- I don't want to hurt you because you were... nearby."
She knew that, out of the two of them, she was the one that had a tight leash on her powers compared to Sven. His flames sneaked out at the slightest hint of his anger, while for her... it took for her to be at breaking point. As was the time she had been locked away in her room after the attempt on Sven's life. She didn't count that as a loss of complete control. It seeped out, yes, but it retracted when she wished for it too. The day that Sven physically burnt her, the ice that had expelled from her barely had any of her control. It engulfed everything, except Sven, and only because she had an ounce of her mind left to think of him through the pain that had been inflicted.
"...I don't want to hurt him in the moment." She breathed after a moment, hands clenching tightly into fists, her nails biting into the skin of her palm. "And I... I wouldn't be able to trust myself around her. Not if it's... not if it's what we suspect."
Carina knew she had to be honest with Natalia. She had no qualms murdering five unknown men who had attacked her and threatened to take away her unborn child. This woman was knowingly ruining a family, breaking apart a marriage, taking away her husband and threatening her kingdom. This woman had caused not just the potential death of her marriage, but the countless, unnecessary civilian deaths of those in the village where a battalion was stationed.
"The last thing I want is to leave you to do this alone. I want to go with you, see it for myself. See it so he can't worm his way out with more lies if it is all what we think," she swallowed thickly, "But I... I'm not sure if I can-- if I can trust myself, Natalia."