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His question caused Hope to stop. She pulled her hands back to sit in her lap as she looked down at them, furrowing her brows as she bit the inside of her cheek, already feeling her throat begin to tighten when she imagined and remembered how she had acted when she found out that he had cancer. How she instantly yelled, got angry, and then cried right in front of him all in a matter of a couple minutes. The only thing that had been able to calm her down in those moments had been William, and it had only been because he ended up having to yell at her because of the way she was acting. Would she break down like that again? If she was in the room with him during the month and the doctor came in to tell them that something was going wrong and that the cancer was getting worse and that the chemo wasn't seeming to work... What was she going to do? There was no doubt in her mind that she was going to cry. That, she knew, was inevitable, but otherwise? She didn't know.
She wanted to tell him that she wasn't going to panic again, and she wanted to tell him that she was going to be fine but the words of what she had told him before entered his mind; she had to be honest. He had to be honest, which meant she had to be honest, and they had made a promise to never lie to each other and to always tell each other when something was wrong. "I..." She stuttered, shaking her head as she looked back at William with an unsure look with her brows furrowed and her eyes widened a bit. "I don't know." Her hands curled into each other, herself hating that she was so unsure about this but she knew that it was true. She just didn't know how she was going to react. "I want to say that I'll know how I'll act with everything, but I just don't know. And I want to say that I won't panic about anything, but I just don't know. Anything... Anything could happen."
She breathed out a sigh then. "I don't want to hurt you though, and I know you're not going to want to see me like that and I don't want you to see me like that if I do feel like I'm going to lose control over myself. I promise you that I'll try not to. I promise to try and not panic because I know that'll make things worse, and I don't want that to happen."
She wanted to tell him that she wasn't going to panic again, and she wanted to tell him that she was going to be fine but the words of what she had told him before entered his mind; she had to be honest. He had to be honest, which meant she had to be honest, and they had made a promise to never lie to each other and to always tell each other when something was wrong. "I..." She stuttered, shaking her head as she looked back at William with an unsure look with her brows furrowed and her eyes widened a bit. "I don't know." Her hands curled into each other, herself hating that she was so unsure about this but she knew that it was true. She just didn't know how she was going to react. "I want to say that I'll know how I'll act with everything, but I just don't know. And I want to say that I won't panic about anything, but I just don't know. Anything... Anything could happen."
She breathed out a sigh then. "I don't want to hurt you though, and I know you're not going to want to see me like that and I don't want you to see me like that if I do feel like I'm going to lose control over myself. I promise you that I'll try not to. I promise to try and not panic because I know that'll make things worse, and I don't want that to happen."