Being here felt wrong now.
It hadn't even been that long, and the sense of routine in navigating the campus's dorms and halls never really went away. But it was long enough that the routine now felt skewed, ugly and alien, like every step she took on the carpeted floor was an affront: like her
being here was. And it didn't matter how fast she walked, how low she pulled her hood down over her eyes to hide herself - The stares still came. Whenever someone caught a glimpse of her face, whenever someone thought they recognized the square shoulders and muscle definition; whenever a passing student looked her way and was reminded,
vaguely, that there used to be something in there worth looking up to.
Not even empty hallways brought her peace of mind, the walls themselves closing in on her whenever she dared open her eyes. She tried walking with them shut for a brief spell, but just when her heart started hammering a little less she mowed straight into another student and almost checked them to the floor, only able to offer the most dazed of apologies before she quickly turned a corner into a mercifully empty side corridor, sagged back against a wall and uttered a low, miserable moan, hands on her head.
Vincent University was supposed to be her home for four years; Now, all anyone ever wondered was why she hadn't come back yet. How could they ask her that? How could they? She didn't even have an answer for what she was doing here
today, so, you know. It was less like "one step at a time" and more "one useless flop at a time until you're lying on your side but still haven't actually moved anywhere". She snorted at her own stupid, inward joke, hands moving down the sides of her face as she let her gaze drift up to the wall opposite, where an undermaintained notice board was practically overflowing with ads and fliers. Her own face stared back at her through the numerous papers, smiling that dumb grin she hadn't cracked sincerely in months and curling her bicep up in a flex pose.
Korra sighed, stood up and yanked the poster off the board. Why
was she here? Trying to track down someone she might've vaguely recognized from, what, a dream? Her therapist would've had plenty to say if she still went to those meetings.
Looking over the poster in her hands despite herself, she frowned lightly at the reminder. Flanking her pictured self at either side were over a dozen other figures clad in hockey gear flexing similarly (though only the two closest matched the sheer doofiness of the original pose), a flaming graphic reading
'THESE GUNS ARE LICENSED TO THRILL' and emblazoned by a ferret completing the cheap poster showcasing the university's very own hockey team. Her team. This was from months ago, when the Ferrets made the NCAA bracket and she called everyone together as captain for that group shot, and even though she had no idea the media department was gonna make these they got plastered everywhere for a while and it was kinda... awesome.
She shook her head. Maybe she was here because for the first time since
that thing happened-- Not the poster thing, another thing-- she felt like... she could do something. She felt like she could be something other than powerless for the first time in months. If it took following a crazy dream to bring her that then so be it, because as vivid and clear as it was next to her usual nightmares there was one thing she remembered about it above all else: That in that dream, she was
happy.
And maybe someday she could be something worth looking up to again.
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The register said this was the room. Ruby Rose, Edison dorm. Weird. She'd been in this building before, and dreams were dreams, but... Everything about it was too lucid. On the way up here she looked in on the catering area and found the same pack of baloney she almost died from in dreamland. Nothing would've made sense if not for what the one metal armed guy said, and... it still didn't.
Whether it did or not, she was here. Korra stepped up to the door and hammered her fist on it a few times, letting her tired gaze settle on the room's occupant when they answered, hood pulled up and hands slouched tensely in her pockets.
"I need to talk to youuuuuu..."
But Ruby was somewhere else, meaning whoever answered the door wasn't her.
"...uuur roommate."
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