OIY! That was a whole lot of reading I had to catch up on from yesterday...
So, basically I just need to go for older guys?
From what you have told me, it seems as though you are 100% 'afraid' of commitment. While there is nothing wrong with that, if this is how you truly feel then the last thing you should be doing is going for an older guy.
You see, older men are more likely at the stage in their life where they are thinking about settling down, buying houses, starting a family, etc. Whereas younger men are just looking for a good time, a fling, etc. <-- Which seems like something more appropriate for you.)
I have no idea how young you are, but if by 'older' you mean 20, 21, 22, DON'T even bother. That age group of men is NO different then the 19 and younger. I swear a man only mentally prepares himself for caring for a woman after the age of 26,
with the exception of a few men who mature at a young age.
My words of advice to you would be to just let go of this idea that relationships ruin everything. Not EVERY guy is going to screw you over and not every guy is going to be needy/clingy beyond control. You WILL find a happy medium, at some point in your life atleast.
I remember feeling exactly like you, but then one day a guy asked me out and I sucked it up and just said yes. I do not regret this decision because I feel like finally falling in love and experiences all those emotions is a very valuable part of life.
Anyways..... I'll stop rambling.