Hey, I can have crushes on animated characters. Hell, I think in anime so it's all normal to me.
The outside world sucks. In all honesty, the only thing I have going for me is my boyfriend... and sadly enough... I know that I'm the only thing that's keeping him. We've both been through our share of suicidal thoughts... Before I met him, everytime I held a knife in my kitchen I thought about how easy it would be to just end it there.
Reality sucks. Plain and simple. The richness of our imagination dwarfs reality. And when you think about it, in your imagination you don't escape reality. You still have a job, obligations but its interesting. You're a mage, a half-ghost, immortal, whatever. It's just.... with RP I can be me. One of the many sides of me, but I can be me. THe me who is a half-ghost, the me who's an insane catboy, the me who's trying to save his love from the demons within. I don't have to hide. I don't have to keep secrets; I really can just let it all out. And I love that. It's why I'll never stop because if I do, it's one less light int he darkness and it's a pretty big one.