I'm sorry, I'm just getting a little frustrated. I don't think I did a very good job in building the world for you guys since it seems like the point is being missed entirely. You are holy warriors, sent from heaven and trained to be soldiers from the moment you could hold a weapon. Even though you're green as grass, you're somewhat hardened, and you know that once you leave this place things will only be worse. The world is terrible and depressing and dangerous. The church rules everything with an iron grip and anyone who voices a negative opinion on that is stamped out, but you love it and see this as right. You're going out to protect downtrodden people from honest-to-goodness terrifying beasts who try to kill them on a near daily basis.