POSITIVITY One Good Thing About Today - Every Day!

More good things!: <3333 I went to a concert on sunday at the McFarlind Church- and it was a pretty, bell-and- piano, christmas music event. Everyone did great, the church was beautiful, and there were cookies and lemonade (I stuck with water though-- lemonade should not make me have bitter beer face lol)- and I got to hang out with mom, bf, and her friend pat. :) We then saw more christmas lights on the way home. People keep giving me tips! :) I got a $5 last friday (surprisingly, because it was so slow and dead all day in the lobby-) and monday an elderly lady gave me $10, then went on to say how she loved how happy and cheerful I am while helping everyone... hah ahhahahaahaha. if only she saw me back in the breakroom lol.. )))

I work today but will have Christmas Day and New Years off- not christmas Eve though.. oh! And two more good things- Saturday, mom brought over our Swiss Colony snacks! And wow they are so good. Lots of cheese, chocolates and sausages...can't go wrong! I got the extra hour I asked Quin for on Thursdays and Fridays... so now on those days I'll be there at Cane's until 4p.m! whoo! :D

So there's that. Lots of good stuff happening... sometimes makes me worry though.... lol
 
I went to an owl cafe! With real owls!

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I want to draw them now.
 
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I think that I finally did it.

It's been about two weeks since I took myself off of Venalifaxine. Venalifaxine or Effexor was prescribed to me about two years ago by my psychiatrist in an attempt to keep my Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Panic Disorder, and depression at bay. Although it succeeded in at least helping with the anxiety, I felt that it made my depression worse and frequently asked my psychiatrist to take me off of it. Instead of listening to me, however, she just raised the dosage in hopes that would resolve the issue. Due to some mix-ups with my health insurance, however, I haven't seen my psychologist since May and psychiatrist since June.

My depression had not gotten better and I was running out of refills. I managed to stretch myself out until Christmas Day, but then I was on my own from there. I had already managed to ween myself down from 225 mg to 75 mg in the matter of a few months and felt that I was finally ready to take on the withdrawals. The first few days were absolute hell. I was dizzy, nauseous, and could not eat at all. I could barely lift my head and sleep was nearly non-existent. I remember sleeping in intervals of thirty minutes at a time with the result being the most vivid dreams that I could ever imagine. I took some over-the-counter medications and vitamins to help with the withdrawals as well.

Then it all just stopped earlier this week.

I've read online that I'll be experiencing "brain zaps" for the next month or so, but it won't be much longer until I'm completely Effexor-free. I've also read testimonies from people who had gone through the same experience as me with some stating that it's more difficult to quit than heroin. There were others that admitted that the withdrawals were so bad for them that they had to be hospitalized, immediately went back on the medication, or felt as though they were dying. I remember feeling as though I was dying too and had even packed my bags for the hospital multiple times, but I always talked myself out of it. Maybe I was just lucky or have a higher pain tolerance than others, but either way, I'm glad that I've dropped this medication. I can fully feel emotions again and focus much better.

I would never tell anyone to take themselves off of their medication without the help of a medical professional, but in my case, I had no choice and I feel some sense of pride in accomplishing what I did. I know that nobody will probably ever care about this, especially my family (or lack thereof), but I'm proud of myself. And I'm also really glad that I managed to get myself off of Effexor. I've finally mastered coping skills to deal with my anxiety and I hope to take control of my life once again.
 
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I've finally secured myself a smartphone. Am I a cool kid now?
I have access to pokemon go this is a mistake.
 
I finished one of my many papers for school! :D
 
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I finally confessed my feelings to a girl that I liked and we're now dating. Huzzah!
 
Today is my 18 year anniversary! I can't believe we haven't killed each other yet.
 
Today, I got my first platinum trophy on PS4. Nearly 80 hours of work, but definitely worth it. ^_^
 
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So I didn't even put my name down or anything at clubhouse for this new T.E..... but apparently lots of people want me to take this new job as a Document Scanner Specialist, and of course I've already had the interview and filled out the paper work; don't know when I start yet, or my end date at Canes will be- but it's going to make $11.50 an hour and I'll have full time opportunities if they like me.. (really has never scanned a document before though haha- crap.) I'm also getting maaaajor tax refunds! Like A LOT more than expected! Still waiting on them to go through though-- so might not see anything til next month- hopefully won't have to wait til april! my new job is also on the Alameda route- so no more taking two busses to and from work! :D It was the director of clubhouse and several other staff who felt it's time I started making more money, and I hadn't even really considered it... but this is a brand new Temporary Employment site- I'll be working both for the OU University AND DHS office. :) Wish me luck- I'm nervous as hell.
 
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I broke up with my girlfriend who was honestly more hassle than it was worth. I wanted to heal her trauma and also give her the benefit of the doubt instead quitting months and months ago. She never got any better and now I'm physically and emotionally drained, but now I can rest.

One year down the drain and now I have more red flags to consider.

I went straight to her out of a long term relationship, so I never had much time as a bachelor. Should be nice.
 
Just when I thought I was stuck at home for the night, my hubby wants to go out. <3
 
I'm still alive, is about the only good thing of today
 
I no longer work at Raising Canes! :D :D today was my very last day.... and I can't tell you how relieved I am to not have to clean up so many disgusting, retarded, loser families and idiot highschoolers anymore! :D :D Start my new job on Monday at 8:30 a.m.. I will be working for Oklahoma University and DHS, scanning documents at a desk cubicle for 4 hours...possibly more later on... for $11.50 an hour! soooo excited! I WILL miss my co workers at Canes... they were awesome! But I'll visit them as much as I can. also, the lady at Earthbound in Sooner Mall- also the owner- gave me a whole huge bag of new office-style clothes! ^_^
 
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Maggie said:
I no longer work at Raising Canes! :D :D today was my very last day.... and I can't tell you how relieved I am to not have to clean up so many disgusting, retarded, loser families and idiot highschoolers anymore! :D :D Start my new job on Monday at 8:30 a.m.. I will be working for Oklahoma University and DHS, scanning documents at a desk cubicle for 4 hours...possibly more later on... for $11.50 an hour! soooo excited! I WILL miss my co workers at Canes... they were awesome! But I'll visit them as much as I can. also, the lady at Earthbound in Sooner Mall- also the owner- gave me a whole huge bag of new office-style clothes! ^_^
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It's amazing to receive support like that. I'm happy to see you moving forward.
 
Thanks Draugvan! I also got a brand new wardrobe from my Case Manager. We spent five hours on Saturday clothes shopping and getting the right make up, etc..... Total awesomeness! I'm just happy to be getting an office job... <3 <3 How've you been?
 
Tried out a new recipe and it came out wonderfully~ I meal prep my lunches, so I can not wait to enjoy it this week at work.
 
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