I sat crying silently, the wax still burning on my naked body. My body was almost paralysed and I couldn't feel my leg. The gag tasted horrible, but I would rather have that taste in my mouth until I died than have to suffer through all this pain. And I knew that this was only the beginning, a warm up. I was uncomfortable, but I couldn't move, and dare would in case I would hurt myself further. I finally fell asleep, the pain still keeping me in agony. It was restless night, and I subconsciously rolled over at one point, bringing on a fresh burst of pain along my back. Every move stung, and my limbs became cramped and numb. I wanted to die at that moment.