she always started out the day the same feeling nothing but sadness and boredom. The reason for this is because really felt like there was nothing in life to care about. She numbs her pain with not drugs or any kind of substance but with her writing. She loved to write. It was the only thing that made her feel like she could do no wrong. She jumped out of bed and started to get ready for school and when she was finally ready she grabbed her notebook and favorite pen and started out the door. on her way to school riding the school bus as usual. The leader of the jock squad came up and sat right next to her.