The time it took for Samuel to calm down and realize where he was again and stop sobbing was about the same time it took him to fall back asleep, which meant he had no time to really reflect on what had happened. Not that he knew what he had done, there was no way from him to really know what had been real and what hadn't.
When he woke up the next day he was tired, he remembered last night as being especially bad, not what actually happened. He remembered struggling extra hard with coming back to reality, on par with how he had been at the park but he didn't know if it had been due to a dream or if he had actually had a flashback, he felt horrible though and he was slowly starting to realize it was the latter.
What was really throwing him off though was the fact that Roman wasn't there with him. He realized this because he really felt like he needed a hug and also because it was a Saturday, usually he woke up first on Saturdays. He found his phone on the bedside table and saw that it was eight o clock in the morning, meaning way too early for Roman to have woken up. Suddenly Samuel got a really worried.
He quickly sat up and was about to hurry out of bed when he had to stop himself because the sudden movement made him dizzy, it was a side effect of the medication he used for his dreams, at least for as long as his body was getting used to them. So, he sat for a moment and then tried standing up again, calmer this time, and walked out of the bedroom at a reasonable pace, heart beating as the worry grew.
"Roman?" He asked carefully as he walked down the short hallway from their room to the kitchen and living area.
At first, when he saw Roman sleeping on the couch, feet awkwardly dangling off the edge because of his height Samuel felt relieved because he thought he had just been overreacting. Maybe Samuel really had been awake and seeing things and Roman had headed off to the couch for some peace and quiet.
But then he saw the bruises. The terrible bruises and he instantly knew he had caused them, he didn't remember it but that was the only explanation that made sense.
Samuel hurried over to the couch and slid down on the floor next to Roman, he leaned over and gently moved his head to the side a little to assess the damage. Samuel instantly started crying. It looked terrifying, like it always did when Roman was hurt. But now it was his fault. Samuel did this. Not someone else. And he absolutely hated himself for it.