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Windsong
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Putting this down as rant, but please feel free to give any advice. Anything.
Guess I'll start at the top and split this into pieces that match the title.
Rage and Work are one in the same.
tl;dr: I'm sorry for any attitude I've given anyone on Iwaku lately. This has been gnawing at me for weeks and it's harder to control my temper about it.
So recently on an anger fueled rant I came up with this (supposedly poetic according to my wife) little pile of words and posted them to Facebook. This is what I wrote.
Well my grandmother, being a Born-Again Christian felt the need to point out I was wrong and that Jesus and God would make everything better and that they were pure yada yada. I knew better than to start an argument about religion with my grandmother because it was like arguing with a brick wall, see; pointless. So to try and stop her early and avoid any dram I told her this wasn't an argument against theology or anything like that and I didn't want to get into that right now. She carries on and I foolishly reply with something along the lines of "The Bible is a bunch of fairy tales, I'll accept their wisdom and lessons, but they're too whimsical to believe true." Instant regret. So I removed it seconds later, thinking that the end of it.
She could still read it. E-Mail notifications show what I said despite it being removed. Love my grandmother, love her to death. Spent every summer at her house and even lived there for a while. She taught me to bake, swam with me all the time, helped me grow a garden one summer. Then her parents died and she found Jesus. All of it stopped. If it wasn't about God she had nothing to do with it. Really it felt like I lost her that year.
I received an e-mail from her the next morning with the first line of "You break my heart." The last thing any grandchild wants to hear. It goes on to talk about how I need Jesus, what I do with my life and my hobbies is sacrilegious and wrong. Detailing how her mother told her on her deathbed she was stupid for not finding God sooner like they had.
Well now she won't speak to me. And since my parents, sister, and aunt live with her it's causing more friction for them.
Well my grandmother, being a Born-Again Christian felt the need to point out I was wrong and that Jesus and God would make everything better and that they were pure yada yada. I knew better than to start an argument about religion with my grandmother because it was like arguing with a brick wall, see; pointless. So to try and stop her early and avoid any dram I told her this wasn't an argument against theology or anything like that and I didn't want to get into that right now. She carries on and I foolishly reply with something along the lines of "The Bible is a bunch of fairy tales, I'll accept their wisdom and lessons, but they're too whimsical to believe true." Instant regret. So I removed it seconds later, thinking that the end of it.
She could still read it. E-Mail notifications show what I said despite it being removed. Love my grandmother, love her to death. Spent every summer at her house and even lived there for a while. She taught me to bake, swam with me all the time, helped me grow a garden one summer. Then her parents died and she found Jesus. All of it stopped. If it wasn't about God she had nothing to do with it. Really it felt like I lost her that year.
I received an e-mail from her the next morning with the first line of "You break my heart." The last thing any grandchild wants to hear. It goes on to talk about how I need Jesus, what I do with my life and my hobbies is sacrilegious and wrong. Detailing how her mother told her on her deathbed she was stupid for not finding God sooner like they had.
Well now she won't speak to me. And since my parents, sister, and aunt live with her it's causing more friction for them.
Rage and Work are one in the same.
If anyone's read anything of what I post in general I mention my coworkers on occasion. Ignorance at it's finest.
My lead has been committing fraud on a near weekly basis. Leaving work while remaining on the clock to run her errands, take her grandkids somewhere, or just go home for a while.
When I took my Certification class we were hammered and drilled into us that just going somewhere on our unpaid lunch break and being a minute late or leaving a minute early is grounds for instant dismissal. Before the class an entire night crew of five people had been terminated on the spot when they'd been caught leaving half an hour early a few nights a week.
She's been doing it for years. Since we've got a notebook for when we leave she's been oh-so diligent about filling that out. Well, time sheets are the first and last stop for anything related to work. The notebook is formality and courtesy to others. Well she writes down exactly when she leaves and comes back. Half-a-glance at her time sheet shows she doesn't leave on her lunch and doesn't fill out a leave form to use any sick or vacation for it.
Here's the kicker: I've told my boss multiple times. Says he'll handle it.
Months pass. Nothing happens. So I step it up and take it to our Principal, who's basically school boss. He seems mad about it. Week passes. She remains. No one will answer me why she's allowed to get away with this. It's fraud on her part, and what I can only compare to corruption on their part for covering it up and hoping she'll retire in a year quietly AFTER having surgery (paid by the state), going on a cruise (On state time), and spending her sick and vacation hours not working.
My last step is to go above them all to our Director of Operations. But of course this is what happened to my father when he tried to take the moral high ground and turn people in for this. No one helped him and he simply resigned rather than deal with them. If I turn them in to the higher ups I could be under the microscope as well as dealing with people who could be losing their jobs for it.
Should I just bite the bullet and keep my head low, let them do as they please because I'm low on the totem pole? Or stand up for what I know is wrong and deal with the consequences and possibly lose my position?
My lead has been committing fraud on a near weekly basis. Leaving work while remaining on the clock to run her errands, take her grandkids somewhere, or just go home for a while.
When I took my Certification class we were hammered and drilled into us that just going somewhere on our unpaid lunch break and being a minute late or leaving a minute early is grounds for instant dismissal. Before the class an entire night crew of five people had been terminated on the spot when they'd been caught leaving half an hour early a few nights a week.
She's been doing it for years. Since we've got a notebook for when we leave she's been oh-so diligent about filling that out. Well, time sheets are the first and last stop for anything related to work. The notebook is formality and courtesy to others. Well she writes down exactly when she leaves and comes back. Half-a-glance at her time sheet shows she doesn't leave on her lunch and doesn't fill out a leave form to use any sick or vacation for it.
Here's the kicker: I've told my boss multiple times. Says he'll handle it.
Months pass. Nothing happens. So I step it up and take it to our Principal, who's basically school boss. He seems mad about it. Week passes. She remains. No one will answer me why she's allowed to get away with this. It's fraud on her part, and what I can only compare to corruption on their part for covering it up and hoping she'll retire in a year quietly AFTER having surgery (paid by the state), going on a cruise (On state time), and spending her sick and vacation hours not working.
My last step is to go above them all to our Director of Operations. But of course this is what happened to my father when he tried to take the moral high ground and turn people in for this. No one helped him and he simply resigned rather than deal with them. If I turn them in to the higher ups I could be under the microscope as well as dealing with people who could be losing their jobs for it.
Should I just bite the bullet and keep my head low, let them do as they please because I'm low on the totem pole? Or stand up for what I know is wrong and deal with the consequences and possibly lose my position?
With everything going on at work it's felt like my temper has been on a hair trigger lately. Normally nothing could really make me really lose my composure and lash out. But lately it could be something as mundane as a leaky trash bag that sends me to the weight room to lift weights until my arms can't move or go outside to the scrap pile to turn a filing cabinet into a bent and torn apart piece of metal.