1.) Question. 2.) Pretend.
<HR style="COLOR: #000000" SIZE=1><!-- / icon and title --><!-- message -->Well here I am again feeling oh so lonely..
What's worse than feeling lonely as you sit at home all alone?
Well I know the answer to this one:
Feeling just as lonely as you are surrounded by people.
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I want to be with you...
I'm so lonely.
What would I do if you were here?
Pretend to be normal?
Ha, like that would work.
The inner workings of my mind are known by you.
I continue to be lonely.
I have been for years, why not longer?
Its not like I'm going to get saner.
So here's to being alone!
I don't know how to act around people anymore anyways.
It scares me...being so disconnected.
Honestly, the world is better off.
I believe.
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I'm.
<HR style="COLOR: #000000" SIZE=1><!-- / icon and title --><!-- message -->I feel sick, sick of how I feel.
I'm scared.
I'm lonely.
I'm this, I'm that.
Worthless? Maybe.
You tell me.
Me? I believe I'm just....
sick.
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Next.
<HR style="COLOR: #000000" SIZE=1><!-- / icon and title --><!-- message -->Mistake...
Your waiting on my next one.
Your thinking: What is she going to do next to disappoint me?
In the back of your mind, don't deny it, its true.
I know it...I can see it in your eyes.
I've stopped trying to please you.
I know how things will be in the end.
Besides you've come to expect it...why stop now?
What mistake haven't I made yet?
Lets see what I can come up with...
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no title.
Sentinels posted at the gate,
the silver key kept hidden till of late.
Slivers of gold shine through,
like piercing eyes show hate.
The gate opens before me.
Welcome to the party…
The dark figures chuckle.
I slink away to be seated at the head of the crowd,
Secret delicacies soiled with sin before me.
Forkfuls of food, nourishment,
my hand poised at the plate.
Better the follies of lower sentiments
As skilled faces render scars to the surface.
Shrouded in darkness I tear at the light,
Spilling the crazed indulgence of mystery.
I fight till blood colored tears fall upon my face.
Insanity rings ever clear as I yell to the crowd….
Welcome to the show that Satan hosted to bring damnation to my soul.
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