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"Y-you have a daughter. S-so that means you have a wife?"
"No," Rufus replied simply, "she passed away a few years ago. I haven't had a partner since..." Rufus' relationship with his late wife had been complicated. He didn't marry her due to love, but because of pressure his family had put on him. To begin with it had been his own fault, though. Rufus tended to hang out with the wrong sort of people in his youth. It wasn't unusual that he came home six in the morning, completely drunk and gone. During that period he also slept around... a lot. At some point he managed to knock up a girl- someone he'd taken advantage of due to her already existing feelings for him. He didn't have any feelings for her, but being the sort of lofty jerk he was back then, Rufus had slept with her anyway.
The consequences of this was that, as his parents became aware of her pregnancy, they more or less forced him into taking responsibility by marrying her. The reason wasn't that they cared for the girl- but being a wealthy and respectable family, they had a reputation to worry about. By the same time Jack confessed his love to Rufus- and while Rufus may actually have felt something for Jack, he was forced to turn him down due to his convictions. He never told Jack this, however, being too proud and embarrassed at the time. So, instead he blamed it on simply having too little experience with boys... which was an outright lie. Rufus had always lived by the philosophy that sex was sex, and it didn't matter where he got it.
While he didn't care for her at first, Rufus eventually came to love his wife- just like he loved his daughter. So even if some part of him regretted his careless misstakes... he did not regret his daughter nor the fact that he ended up marrying Akari. She changed him, a lot. It was thanks to her that he became the respectable man he is today.
"I don't remember anything, i made myself forget you. I couldn't even remember your name. I left craving a new start."
"So you did... and yet you're still crying when reminded of your past. It can only mean that you haven't really forgotten, no?" he was smiling, shaking his head a little as he chuckled softly, sadly. Glancing at his bracelet watch, Rufus took note of how it was beginning to get late.
"Hmm... I should probably get back soon. I..." he paused, hesitating briefly, then shook his head. He was going to suggest taking Jack out for dinner at some point, but then reminded himself of that he had no right doing so. Besides, who knew? Perhaps Jack, living as Brandon already had found himself a new partner. Perhaps he was doing better that Rufus suspected. He couldn't know any of this, and he certainly didn't have any right to hope.
"No," Rufus replied simply, "she passed away a few years ago. I haven't had a partner since..." Rufus' relationship with his late wife had been complicated. He didn't marry her due to love, but because of pressure his family had put on him. To begin with it had been his own fault, though. Rufus tended to hang out with the wrong sort of people in his youth. It wasn't unusual that he came home six in the morning, completely drunk and gone. During that period he also slept around... a lot. At some point he managed to knock up a girl- someone he'd taken advantage of due to her already existing feelings for him. He didn't have any feelings for her, but being the sort of lofty jerk he was back then, Rufus had slept with her anyway.
The consequences of this was that, as his parents became aware of her pregnancy, they more or less forced him into taking responsibility by marrying her. The reason wasn't that they cared for the girl- but being a wealthy and respectable family, they had a reputation to worry about. By the same time Jack confessed his love to Rufus- and while Rufus may actually have felt something for Jack, he was forced to turn him down due to his convictions. He never told Jack this, however, being too proud and embarrassed at the time. So, instead he blamed it on simply having too little experience with boys... which was an outright lie. Rufus had always lived by the philosophy that sex was sex, and it didn't matter where he got it.
While he didn't care for her at first, Rufus eventually came to love his wife- just like he loved his daughter. So even if some part of him regretted his careless misstakes... he did not regret his daughter nor the fact that he ended up marrying Akari. She changed him, a lot. It was thanks to her that he became the respectable man he is today.
"I don't remember anything, i made myself forget you. I couldn't even remember your name. I left craving a new start."
"So you did... and yet you're still crying when reminded of your past. It can only mean that you haven't really forgotten, no?" he was smiling, shaking his head a little as he chuckled softly, sadly. Glancing at his bracelet watch, Rufus took note of how it was beginning to get late.
"Hmm... I should probably get back soon. I..." he paused, hesitating briefly, then shook his head. He was going to suggest taking Jack out for dinner at some point, but then reminded himself of that he had no right doing so. Besides, who knew? Perhaps Jack, living as Brandon already had found himself a new partner. Perhaps he was doing better that Rufus suspected. He couldn't know any of this, and he certainly didn't have any right to hope.