Journal Entry - Breaking a Heart

[ElBell]

Hi all! Yet another challenge driven by random inspiration from daily life, this challenge is about a character's journal-style entry based on recent and fresh heartbreak. However, in this case, this is to be written from the perspective of the person who broke another's heart rather than from the person who's heart is broken. They can be any age, any place, and have any reason to have turned down or avoided the person's feeling or confession, just have fun with it and get creative!

 

[Roose Hurro]

Local frame-time: 3rd of Frr'n, 1179st, 4.1.6

Don't know why I'm writing this. After what happened, perhaps I owe Hnn'J'ka to at least record the memory. Keep it inside? Why not spill fresh entrails, yes. Life has always taught me it is best to face everything I've done, everything I am. Everything that happens, even if it makes me bleed inside.

Love.

I've been alone so long, I'd thought the pain dulled. Living. It doesn't allow pain to dull for too long. Only death ends. But I rejected death. I eat dead things for breakfast, lunch, dinner. Must live to do that. So. I did not mean to hurt Hnn'J'ka. I just wanted her to understand why. Our two kinds, so similar. Both of us, compact and efficient hunters. We look different, yes. Live the same.

Her urges I understood.

I just wanted her to understand. My kind... I... am toxic. I could not love her the way she wanted, without being responsible for her death.

I can only hope she heals. Her heart deserves that much.

 

[Kitsune]

Dear Journal, ​

March 18, 2015​

Today....I was stupid, as always.

My crush, the one that I've been having feelings over for years now, had finally confessed to me. He had did a simple confession, accompanied with a bouquet of my favorite flowers. How he knew my favorite flowers, I will never know. But it was the thought that counted and that thought sent my heart racing into overdrive and my breath to hitch. Of course, he didn't notice any of this, so caught up in his own feelings for me. He had spilled his heart out to me, telling me all of these things about how he felt around me and how cute I was. (For the record, I am not cute!) He even told me how he would be the best boyfriend for me. I was almost in tears at the end of it, but I don't cry in front of anyone. Especially not my crush. In the end, he was looking down at me (because I am shorter than him) with this wide, hopeful, expecting gaze. And, my gosh, were his eyes the most gorgeous I've ever seen. Have I ever gushed about his eyes? Well, that's a journal entry for another time. Anyway, back to the story! It was silent as everyone (because, yes, a crowd of people were swarmed around us) waited for my response. And you want to know what I did?

I rejected him!

Yes! I, MacKenzie Rayne James, rejected my life-long crush! Can you believe it?! Ugh, I never felt so stupid and guilty before. I just had to get all flustered and red-faced and practically belt out how he was such an 'idiot' and how we would 'never be together'. Luckily, I kept the bouquet of flowers clutched in my grip as I stomped off, still red as a tomato and seething for absolutely no reason, now that I look back on it. What reason did I have to reject him? None. Maybe....Maybe I was scared. Scared of actually being in a relationship for once. Scared of letting my guard down and caring for someone. Letting them care for me. There's no point in trying to figure out what went wrong now. I'm sure that I blew my one opportunity of being with him. Hell, I'll be lucky if he even talks to me tomorrow. It's going to be a tough day tomorrow, but all I can do is get through it with my head held up high. Ugh, why couldn't he confess on Friday so I wouldn't have to face him until Monday?! Stupid baka always making stupid decisions! Well, that's been the highlight of my day. Not much else to write here. Until next time, journal. Sayonara~!
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~Love, Mickey​