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Avram was only half paying attention to whatever Lyanna was saying, kicking himself for throwing his anger at her. She was the last person who deserved such treatment. A sinking feeling of guilt took him over as well, added to the pain that sat firmly in chest. At least he was not as angry anymore, but for how much longer? He really was going as mad as his father was. No! I won't let that happen to me! How could he be so foolish as to accuse the Eburharts of treachery directly to Lyanna's face? He had as much right to do that as his mother or Mina did of accusing Myla. Surely word of that would spread as soon as she told her family, or even one of her handmaidens, what had happened. Their marriage was supposed to strengthen the alliance their families were forming and so far Avram was doing everything in his power to see that it failed. Only a fool would let this wound fester without sealing it up before the infection spread. But what was he supposed to say to her? That he did not really suspect her mother or father had something to do with the murder? He suspected them as much as he did anyone else.
Instead Avram elected to keep his mouth shut on the matter. He still could not bring himself to look at her again. It was likely that she was blind with tears by this point and he could not bare to look at her knowing that he had been the one to cause them. Her voice shook noticeably the few times she dared to speak, and those words sounded as if she had practiced them for this very moment, or something like it anyway. But Avram knew the real reason he did not want to look at her. She was not Myla. She was a young woman, albeit quite beautiful, who had no understanding of how to think past whatever duty she was taught growing up. She did not know the pain of loss as Myla did, or as Avram did now. As much as it pained Avram to think it, he knew Lyanna could do little for him in regards to sympathy. The most she could offer him was a comforting embrace and a kiss to make the pain go away. But neither of those could fix what had happened here tonight. They would not help her to understand his pain, so she would have no way of knowing what to say or do to keep his mind at peace.
There was no need to turn around to know that Lyanna was backing away from him. Avram probably would have done the same were he in her position. And two days she would be married to him despite what had occurred just now. "Please," he began, still refusing to look at her, "do not think less of me for what just happened. Nothing of the sort will ever happen again." Could he really promise that? What if one day he found that the rest of his family was gone as well? Would he lose his mind the way he just had? Would it suddenly put him over the edge of madness that consumed his father for years? It was not nice to think about any of that. Lyanna had shut the door behind her, leaving Avram alone once more. He could not blame her for wanting to get out of there as soon as she could. What a fool he was for letting her take the sour end of all of the emotions that consumed him, the rage that built in the span of less than an hour. Thinking about it made the hurt return once again, and the tears he thought had dried up came back harder than ever. Bending over the window, Avram watched as they fell to the distant ground below.
So Myla had been training to use the sword primarily as a means of appearing more powerful than she was. It was a brilliant idea, though now it was safe to say that she would need it for safety. "I am no Ser Gerold, my lady, but if you wish to continue your lessons after leaving Sarvayl I would be more than happy to help." He had taught many young boys the art of swordsmanship and she could be taught just as easily. The only thing that worried him was how the lessons would rub Elize. If she saw an older woman, especially one she would look up to, learning to fight then she would certainly want to learn as well. That was never the type of future he wanted to see her live for, not if he could help it. Ector would not be around forever, and when his time came she would need someone to take care of her. A woman who knew the sword was far less attractive to a man than a woman who knew how to sew. In Myla's case there was not much of a choice, and her mind was clearly made up already. But Elize did not have to follow that path. Yet what if she chose to? And what if she needed it one day?
But Ector kept his worries to himself for now. There would be plenty of time for that later. The important task at hand was finding out whether or not it was safe to leave tomorrow as they had planned. Odds were heavily favoring a longer wait. "Perhaps we should wait until after the wedding. Every guest will be departing then. No one will notice three... er, four... travelers leaving with the rest." Even then, Ector was not entirely comfortable with the idea of waiting more than one night. It was risky business having Myla stay here when there were people who wanted to see her dead at every corner. "But that is assuming we can ensure your safety. Guards outside your room will help, but we cannot expect you to stay there all day. Not when you have council meetings and sword lessons to attend." Fool, was he really worried about her appointments when her life could be in jeopardy? "If you do wish to stay until it is safe to leave without looking suspicious, then I will take the time to discover who it was that killed the king. In addition I will make sure I have a list of who in Sarvayl wants to see you dead. I already know of one that I dare not mention aloud. At least not in these halls."
Deciding that it was time to see that Elize was in bed, Ector bowed respectfully and tried to hid his worry. "We will speak again soon. I must see that Elize does not stay up too late." He bit the inside of his cheek, frowning at his thoughts for a moment. "Normally I would tell you that this is when you must go to the royal family and offer them your blessings for the king's passing. But seeing as how they must feel about you I will have to advise against it." With that he had nothing more to say and bowed once more. "Do not hesitate to find me if things should run sour." With that he reentered the hall. Lord Dremond was still entertaining himself with the serving girl, though now she seemed less willing to accept his advances. Elize was right where he left her. She watched him enter, and with a simple nod from him she understood that it was time to leave, saying a quick farewell to her friend. She was as dutiful a daughter as he could have asked for. How would he have the heart to tell her that they could not stay here for much longer?
Instead Avram elected to keep his mouth shut on the matter. He still could not bring himself to look at her again. It was likely that she was blind with tears by this point and he could not bare to look at her knowing that he had been the one to cause them. Her voice shook noticeably the few times she dared to speak, and those words sounded as if she had practiced them for this very moment, or something like it anyway. But Avram knew the real reason he did not want to look at her. She was not Myla. She was a young woman, albeit quite beautiful, who had no understanding of how to think past whatever duty she was taught growing up. She did not know the pain of loss as Myla did, or as Avram did now. As much as it pained Avram to think it, he knew Lyanna could do little for him in regards to sympathy. The most she could offer him was a comforting embrace and a kiss to make the pain go away. But neither of those could fix what had happened here tonight. They would not help her to understand his pain, so she would have no way of knowing what to say or do to keep his mind at peace.
There was no need to turn around to know that Lyanna was backing away from him. Avram probably would have done the same were he in her position. And two days she would be married to him despite what had occurred just now. "Please," he began, still refusing to look at her, "do not think less of me for what just happened. Nothing of the sort will ever happen again." Could he really promise that? What if one day he found that the rest of his family was gone as well? Would he lose his mind the way he just had? Would it suddenly put him over the edge of madness that consumed his father for years? It was not nice to think about any of that. Lyanna had shut the door behind her, leaving Avram alone once more. He could not blame her for wanting to get out of there as soon as she could. What a fool he was for letting her take the sour end of all of the emotions that consumed him, the rage that built in the span of less than an hour. Thinking about it made the hurt return once again, and the tears he thought had dried up came back harder than ever. Bending over the window, Avram watched as they fell to the distant ground below.
So Myla had been training to use the sword primarily as a means of appearing more powerful than she was. It was a brilliant idea, though now it was safe to say that she would need it for safety. "I am no Ser Gerold, my lady, but if you wish to continue your lessons after leaving Sarvayl I would be more than happy to help." He had taught many young boys the art of swordsmanship and she could be taught just as easily. The only thing that worried him was how the lessons would rub Elize. If she saw an older woman, especially one she would look up to, learning to fight then she would certainly want to learn as well. That was never the type of future he wanted to see her live for, not if he could help it. Ector would not be around forever, and when his time came she would need someone to take care of her. A woman who knew the sword was far less attractive to a man than a woman who knew how to sew. In Myla's case there was not much of a choice, and her mind was clearly made up already. But Elize did not have to follow that path. Yet what if she chose to? And what if she needed it one day?
But Ector kept his worries to himself for now. There would be plenty of time for that later. The important task at hand was finding out whether or not it was safe to leave tomorrow as they had planned. Odds were heavily favoring a longer wait. "Perhaps we should wait until after the wedding. Every guest will be departing then. No one will notice three... er, four... travelers leaving with the rest." Even then, Ector was not entirely comfortable with the idea of waiting more than one night. It was risky business having Myla stay here when there were people who wanted to see her dead at every corner. "But that is assuming we can ensure your safety. Guards outside your room will help, but we cannot expect you to stay there all day. Not when you have council meetings and sword lessons to attend." Fool, was he really worried about her appointments when her life could be in jeopardy? "If you do wish to stay until it is safe to leave without looking suspicious, then I will take the time to discover who it was that killed the king. In addition I will make sure I have a list of who in Sarvayl wants to see you dead. I already know of one that I dare not mention aloud. At least not in these halls."
Deciding that it was time to see that Elize was in bed, Ector bowed respectfully and tried to hid his worry. "We will speak again soon. I must see that Elize does not stay up too late." He bit the inside of his cheek, frowning at his thoughts for a moment. "Normally I would tell you that this is when you must go to the royal family and offer them your blessings for the king's passing. But seeing as how they must feel about you I will have to advise against it." With that he had nothing more to say and bowed once more. "Do not hesitate to find me if things should run sour." With that he reentered the hall. Lord Dremond was still entertaining himself with the serving girl, though now she seemed less willing to accept his advances. Elize was right where he left her. She watched him enter, and with a simple nod from him she understood that it was time to leave, saying a quick farewell to her friend. She was as dutiful a daughter as he could have asked for. How would he have the heart to tell her that they could not stay here for much longer?