I'm seriously at the end of my rope here. I'm going nuts. I unable to get enthused about anything. At all. With the exception of the one game I can't play I can't even get excited about video games anymore, the one real passion I'd say I have in my life. I just don't have the computer to do so. I read a report today that the employed/unemployed ratio in my state is 1/5 and I believe it. I've been on the hunt for far too long with too few results. Two interviews that I felt I nailed in the last month and nothing.
I don't want to get up in the morning. I don't want to go to bed at night. It's all turning into one big fucking blur. My social life runs the incredibly high risk of having my best and only friend in the whole goddamn world being shipped off to Seattle unless we can somehow move out together but even now he seems to be spending a lot of time up there already and I'm starting to think he's just resigned himself to that fate and simply refuses to talk to me about it.
School can barely hold my attention and I end up skipping out on class more than I'd like to admit. I haven't the money to do anything, go anywhere, buy anything, nothing I can do to keep myself entertained and out of the realm of utter boredom. If this is what being world weary is I honestly have no idea how people can possibly deal with it.
I just want something good to happen for once. I want to catch a break. Land a job so I can get a computer so I can play games I enjoy with my friends online. Meet someone who can pull me out of this social rut. Something, anything, to help me get out of this cycle where I'm just one big fleshy mass of depression and boredom...
I don't want to get up in the morning. I don't want to go to bed at night. It's all turning into one big fucking blur. My social life runs the incredibly high risk of having my best and only friend in the whole goddamn world being shipped off to Seattle unless we can somehow move out together but even now he seems to be spending a lot of time up there already and I'm starting to think he's just resigned himself to that fate and simply refuses to talk to me about it.
School can barely hold my attention and I end up skipping out on class more than I'd like to admit. I haven't the money to do anything, go anywhere, buy anything, nothing I can do to keep myself entertained and out of the realm of utter boredom. If this is what being world weary is I honestly have no idea how people can possibly deal with it.
I just want something good to happen for once. I want to catch a break. Land a job so I can get a computer so I can play games I enjoy with my friends online. Meet someone who can pull me out of this social rut. Something, anything, to help me get out of this cycle where I'm just one big fleshy mass of depression and boredom...