Harmony in the Chaos

[Ethys]

Did you hear that, Sari? He isn't afraid of you. He think he's safe. Doesn't he know what you've done?

Sariel didn't release her hold on her friend, keeping both arms locked around him as he brushed mud off of her. She had no intention of letting him go until he forced her to, and as of right now, he seemed okay with the whole situation. Of course, he also had no way of knowing what was going on inside her head. She wanted to tell him, to explain that she was losing control and that her tentative hold on reality was slipping, but she couldn't. Even if she thought he could help, she couldn't force herself to form the words. Asking for help had never done her favors before. She trusted him, but lifelong habits were difficult to break.

Oh, yes, that would be fun, wouldn't it? Telling him that you're getting crazier by the second?
He'd leave you in an instant. Even a human has a better chance alone than with you by his side. I'm surprised he hasn't dumped you off yet. He's more persistent than I thought.
He cares about me.. I think..
I cared about you too. I wonder if he'll cut you open too..
He doesn't care, idiot girl. He's using you until he has no need of you, then he'll be gone.

"Really?" she asked aloud, her head still tucked down against his shoulder. Her eyes were open, staring at nothing. The question hadn't been directed at him, of course, but rather at herself. Her other self? She didn't know. This was all confusing and wretched. All she knew was that she was suddenly filled with doubts about the very person she was embracing. Was her perception of him skewed? Did he actually care? He had almost kissed her before, hadn't he? On the roof? Maybe that had all been in her head too. Oh, no.

Things kept changing and she didn't know how to handle it. Back on the roof, now that she was thinking about it, she could recall how she felt when her friend had embraced her. Her mind had been completely silent for the first time that she could ever remember. It was so freeing, so.. beautiful. But now that he was in her mind, it was as though there was no escape. Even here, in the comforting hold of her companion, her mind refused to silence itself. Worse, she was back to questioning everything she thought she knew.

 

[Chriyu]

There was no way they planned to let her go. She needed their comfort and sure it wasn't time nor place to be intimate..But it was needed desperately. Funny thing was, most people would under estimate their will or even what they were capable of themselves. Hey that was perfectly fine, nothing like proving someone, or some voices wrong right? They held onto the elf as tight as they could possibly ensuring that whatever she felt, she knew it wasn't just idle comfort. It was real comfort and really them trying to help.

Sure, they may not be the best candidate for what they've done, but it doesn't mean they're truly bad.

They simply nodded when she spoke outwards. It didn't seem like she was directly responding but more or less trying to deal whomever was in her head. If only there was someway to get inside her head and argue with these damn voices. Kind of like how they do, but with much more aggression and mental punches. They'd teach them a thing or two. Yeah..That's it. Make her doubt the voices are trying to help her when he is actually the one who wants to help! Genius! Why didn't we think of it sooner?

"Could you kindly..Get those voices to shut up for a moment?"
"Tell em' to buzz off..Jusssst...For a second."

..Then, they resorted to shaking the girl's head. They expected that the voices inside would be rattled and unable to focus for a short time. The perfect amount of time for him to get across a valid point that they wouldn't hear.

"...Whatever happens, just know we promise never to hurt you. We'll have a safe word too, for reassurance."
"What word?.."
"Uhh..."
"Why not ... Bananas!"
"No no, too cliche."
"OH! Duh.. Flower!"
"Why Flower?..That's stupid!"
"Well, she's pretty like a flower.."
"LOOKS LIKE WE HAVE A MATCH!"


They smiled over at their friend, hoping this would clear up some of the inner troubles she had.

RUMBLE RUMBLE...

Heheheh....~

The cave began to shake.

 

[Ethys]

Sariel felt like she was being pulled in three different directions. The two voices that were speaking to her seemed to be on the same side, so that was where she was leaning toward. It was foolish to trust the boy, silly to think that he actually cared for her in any real capacity. However, there was still a very small part of her, the part that was truly herself, that believed otherwise. She thought that he really did care, and that he really did want to stay with her. Why else would he be holding her this way? So close? Allowing her to cling to him?

She looked up at him as he spoke, but before she could respond or the voices could let her know their opinions in the matter, he shook her. Letting out a startled squeal, she blinked several times. Oh, she felt dizzy and confused now! She stared up at her friend, listening as he argued with himself - or, rather, his various selves. A safe word? He cared. He wasn't going to hurt her. She gave him a smile, relief coursing through her in one warm, wonderful moment.

A moment that ended all too soon, since the cave started shaking as if it was going to collapse on their heads at any second.

"We need to move!" she yelped, not knowing what was going on. Whatever it was, they had to get out. She waved a hand, quickly making the vines over the entrance retract out of the way. It was still pouring, meaning that mud was the only thing on the ground. Oh well! She scrambled out of the cave and into the mud, shivering a bit at the difference between the open air and the warm embrace she had just left.