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Perfect Neglect
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Numb fingers pulled at the straps that held his armor in place, allowing the ornate breastplate to fall gracelessly to the floor with a clatter. His belt and sword followed in kind before the knight slowly stooped to collect the pieces from the floor, returning them to their places in his quarters. He was working in a tired haze, but his mind was reeling over the day's events, and he had a sinking feeling that sleep would not come to him.
He had overheard Serah's scolding of Bjarke down in the prison and had quickly exited before anymore drama could come of it, intent on speaking to Maximus about the situation-- though he had been denied the opportunity. The king would see no one before the evening ball, and Bastian had left feeling concerned, frustrated, and rather dejected. The man had never withheld information from him like this before, nor had he ever so blatantly refused to speak with him. Surely there was something he had done to warrant this behaviour from his king, but he could not discern what that something was. All he wanted was to throw himself at the man's feet, implore an explanation, and correct whatever error he might've made. There was, of course, the underlying desire to be pulled into Maximus' arms again-- pushed down against his bed, and made to forget the recent happenings for a time… But that was a trivial, selfish matter. Even if he was never to have the king's affections again, he still felt desperate to speak to him and assess the situation at hand.
Dinner had, unsurprisingly, gone no better than the rest of his chaotic day. He had returned to his quarters and dressed for the ball, only to find that the king had called in the Falcons as additional guards for the party. While Bastian was relieved to see the number of guards about the court, his presence was becoming less and less necessary. Two armored men had already taken their places near the king's table and, for a time, Bastian merely paced about the court, trying to ensure that nothing looked out of place. Nothing did. In fact, many of the Northerners were not even present at the ball-- no doubt off drinking in taverns.
During a lull in the goings on, Bastian had decided to again speak to Maximus, even if only for a moment, but upon his approach the man had smiled at him and given him a discreet signal to stand down.
Bastian was lost. It was strange, really-- how one small gesture could so greatly affect him-- but the dismissive wave had sent the Knight Commander away with a clenched jaw, his arms tight at his sides, head down.
Unsure of what else to do with himself, the man had returned to his quarters to shrug off his armor. There was only one thing he could think of that might help him find a bit of peace.
When everything was back in place, Bastian sank down in a wooden chair and closed his eyes. He was exhausted, but still possessed enough resolve to focus, reaching out with his mind-- hoping he would find another to be willing. He had to search only for a moment before he felt the familiar, comforting sensation of being lifted away as his body went slack in the chair. Seconds later he opened his eyes to find the world falling away from him as the smooth motion of wings carried him over the darkened forests of Vanqland. It had been too long since he'd allowed himself this pleasure; the feeling of freedom-- of everything he'd left behind-- and perhaps that was why. After he'd assumed his other form, this was no longer how he spent his days-- he had given himself completely to his work and to his king and there had been no hesitation to do so. For years there had been no regret in his decision, never a second thought about why or what he had done, but tonight was marking firsts of many.
Before he could further contemplate, however, his consciousness crashed back into his body, causing a violent jerk that nearly caused him to fall from the chair. He hadn't the energy to sustain his connection with the other, and the brief session had left him all the more exhausted for it.
For a time he sat motionless in the chair, willing his body to fail-- to let him sleep-- but the respite still did not come. Distant sounds of the party could still be heard along the corridors, and the knight felt a sudden compulsion to be away from the palace.
Donning a simple black vest over his shirt, the man slipped out of his quarters and set a silent, steady pace for the town. He had no idea what he would do once there; he'd never truly taken a day off before and a part of him still felt that he was abandoning his king-- but he had been dismissed for the evening. The mere thought of the occurrence caused a bitter sting in his mind, and he pushed at the thought, willing it away.
Tired eyes scanned the various lodges and pubs and the knight finally settled for "The Dancing Bear." It looked to be moderately crowded, and the sounds of laughter carried easily into the night air. Hesitantly, Bastian pushed open the door and slunk inside, claiming the only available seat at the far end of the counter.
It was loud, but he was quickly adjusting to the sounds and smells-- particularly to whatever many of the patrons were eating. It then occurred to him that he had neglected to eat today-- but the thought of it made his stomach turn. Resting an elbow against the bar, he lowered his head into his hand and closed his eyes.
"What'll it be, deary?"
Lifting his head as the voice reached his ears, Bastian focused his gaze on the woman in front of him, his expression blank.
"Seven 'ells, donchu look right awful."
Bastian continued to stare at the woman.
"Ah'll getchu somethin' strong then?"
"I--…" he started, but was quickly interrupted as a glass was slammed down in front of him.
"Never seen ewe 'round here before," she said, pouring a dark, amber-coloured liquid into the glass, "this'un's ahn me. Donchu be gettin' use to it, but a 'andsome boy shouldn't be lookin' so put out." She gave him a quick grin before pushing the glass toward him and sauntering off to dole out drinks to other patrons.
Directing his attention down to the glass in front of him, Bastian contemplated the foul-smelling liquid, eyes glazing slightly as he stared into it.
He had overheard Serah's scolding of Bjarke down in the prison and had quickly exited before anymore drama could come of it, intent on speaking to Maximus about the situation-- though he had been denied the opportunity. The king would see no one before the evening ball, and Bastian had left feeling concerned, frustrated, and rather dejected. The man had never withheld information from him like this before, nor had he ever so blatantly refused to speak with him. Surely there was something he had done to warrant this behaviour from his king, but he could not discern what that something was. All he wanted was to throw himself at the man's feet, implore an explanation, and correct whatever error he might've made. There was, of course, the underlying desire to be pulled into Maximus' arms again-- pushed down against his bed, and made to forget the recent happenings for a time… But that was a trivial, selfish matter. Even if he was never to have the king's affections again, he still felt desperate to speak to him and assess the situation at hand.
Dinner had, unsurprisingly, gone no better than the rest of his chaotic day. He had returned to his quarters and dressed for the ball, only to find that the king had called in the Falcons as additional guards for the party. While Bastian was relieved to see the number of guards about the court, his presence was becoming less and less necessary. Two armored men had already taken their places near the king's table and, for a time, Bastian merely paced about the court, trying to ensure that nothing looked out of place. Nothing did. In fact, many of the Northerners were not even present at the ball-- no doubt off drinking in taverns.
During a lull in the goings on, Bastian had decided to again speak to Maximus, even if only for a moment, but upon his approach the man had smiled at him and given him a discreet signal to stand down.
Bastian was lost. It was strange, really-- how one small gesture could so greatly affect him-- but the dismissive wave had sent the Knight Commander away with a clenched jaw, his arms tight at his sides, head down.
Unsure of what else to do with himself, the man had returned to his quarters to shrug off his armor. There was only one thing he could think of that might help him find a bit of peace.
When everything was back in place, Bastian sank down in a wooden chair and closed his eyes. He was exhausted, but still possessed enough resolve to focus, reaching out with his mind-- hoping he would find another to be willing. He had to search only for a moment before he felt the familiar, comforting sensation of being lifted away as his body went slack in the chair. Seconds later he opened his eyes to find the world falling away from him as the smooth motion of wings carried him over the darkened forests of Vanqland. It had been too long since he'd allowed himself this pleasure; the feeling of freedom-- of everything he'd left behind-- and perhaps that was why. After he'd assumed his other form, this was no longer how he spent his days-- he had given himself completely to his work and to his king and there had been no hesitation to do so. For years there had been no regret in his decision, never a second thought about why or what he had done, but tonight was marking firsts of many.
Before he could further contemplate, however, his consciousness crashed back into his body, causing a violent jerk that nearly caused him to fall from the chair. He hadn't the energy to sustain his connection with the other, and the brief session had left him all the more exhausted for it.
For a time he sat motionless in the chair, willing his body to fail-- to let him sleep-- but the respite still did not come. Distant sounds of the party could still be heard along the corridors, and the knight felt a sudden compulsion to be away from the palace.
Donning a simple black vest over his shirt, the man slipped out of his quarters and set a silent, steady pace for the town. He had no idea what he would do once there; he'd never truly taken a day off before and a part of him still felt that he was abandoning his king-- but he had been dismissed for the evening. The mere thought of the occurrence caused a bitter sting in his mind, and he pushed at the thought, willing it away.
Tired eyes scanned the various lodges and pubs and the knight finally settled for "The Dancing Bear." It looked to be moderately crowded, and the sounds of laughter carried easily into the night air. Hesitantly, Bastian pushed open the door and slunk inside, claiming the only available seat at the far end of the counter.
It was loud, but he was quickly adjusting to the sounds and smells-- particularly to whatever many of the patrons were eating. It then occurred to him that he had neglected to eat today-- but the thought of it made his stomach turn. Resting an elbow against the bar, he lowered his head into his hand and closed his eyes.
"What'll it be, deary?"
Lifting his head as the voice reached his ears, Bastian focused his gaze on the woman in front of him, his expression blank.
"Seven 'ells, donchu look right awful."
Bastian continued to stare at the woman.
"Ah'll getchu somethin' strong then?"
"I--…" he started, but was quickly interrupted as a glass was slammed down in front of him.
"Never seen ewe 'round here before," she said, pouring a dark, amber-coloured liquid into the glass, "this'un's ahn me. Donchu be gettin' use to it, but a 'andsome boy shouldn't be lookin' so put out." She gave him a quick grin before pushing the glass toward him and sauntering off to dole out drinks to other patrons.
Directing his attention down to the glass in front of him, Bastian contemplated the foul-smelling liquid, eyes glazing slightly as he stared into it.
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