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[BCOLOR=transparent]He was certain the feeling to cry was not the appropriate emotion in this situation. He rarely assisted with combat training because his own imagination was able to fill in creatively the missing details of a real fight. He tried to focus on everyone and their movements, where they were placed. [/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]Though after a while that was even hard to give focus to. He felt selfish and useless in this moment. His own idealism, and he knew it was idealism had made him believed he could melt away their looks of desperation and frustration. His heart stretched and reached towards Frid.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]It wasn't this that triggered the reaction in him though. When he was on his knees and the Harald had come to them. Something, his tiredness, his personal exhaustion, had sparked imagery in his mind. The theater seat catching on fire burning away like a photograph melting as if it were made of wax. He was suppose to be helping them.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]He was to say something to Ghrem, but he hesitated to do so, when visibly sweat on his brow seemed like blood. Kiza said nothing. Instead he wrung his fingers and rubbed his hands together to give himself something to do. He was use to playing the flute or doing something with them. Like make muffins, perhaps floral decoration, perhaps decorating the cafeteria of different seasons. He did it all to sooth those from this feeling.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]He reached for his flute this one more time, but he slipped it back into his pocket. He couldn't fight. He couldn't help. [/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]The least he could do was reach the goal. With Ghrem's wall and everyone else fighting so desperately to keep him safe. It brought up too many emotions to watch everyone fight desperately for him. He shouldn't let imagination clutch him so desperately and yet it had. He had to do something for the group after this.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]Make extra cookies. Make them dinner. He knew the cafeteria lady would be mad if he cooked for everybody, so maybe he could talk her into helping him. He needed to do something for them, he simply had to do so. [/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]He was close to the goal. While he was sure everyone would be relieved by simply that fact. He wasn't much relieved from it. [/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]No this whole entire situation taught him something valuable. No one ever should go through this. No one should ever had to go through this. No one ever should feel both useful and useless. There had to be a better way to escort people safely where they needed to go.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]When he reached the goal, or reaching near the goal. He tried to not let his knees go weak from underneath him. But he felt tears stinging his eyes. He turned away from the battle one more time to look at the goal through watery vision because he couldn't stop himself.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]This would not help anyone. [/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]He couldn't help them. Save them. Do anything for them. He had to make sure he would pay them back. He had to pay them back. Somehow. Someway.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]Though after a while that was even hard to give focus to. He felt selfish and useless in this moment. His own idealism, and he knew it was idealism had made him believed he could melt away their looks of desperation and frustration. His heart stretched and reached towards Frid.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]It wasn't this that triggered the reaction in him though. When he was on his knees and the Harald had come to them. Something, his tiredness, his personal exhaustion, had sparked imagery in his mind. The theater seat catching on fire burning away like a photograph melting as if it were made of wax. He was suppose to be helping them.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]He was to say something to Ghrem, but he hesitated to do so, when visibly sweat on his brow seemed like blood. Kiza said nothing. Instead he wrung his fingers and rubbed his hands together to give himself something to do. He was use to playing the flute or doing something with them. Like make muffins, perhaps floral decoration, perhaps decorating the cafeteria of different seasons. He did it all to sooth those from this feeling.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]He reached for his flute this one more time, but he slipped it back into his pocket. He couldn't fight. He couldn't help. [/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]The least he could do was reach the goal. With Ghrem's wall and everyone else fighting so desperately to keep him safe. It brought up too many emotions to watch everyone fight desperately for him. He shouldn't let imagination clutch him so desperately and yet it had. He had to do something for the group after this.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]Make extra cookies. Make them dinner. He knew the cafeteria lady would be mad if he cooked for everybody, so maybe he could talk her into helping him. He needed to do something for them, he simply had to do so. [/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]He was close to the goal. While he was sure everyone would be relieved by simply that fact. He wasn't much relieved from it. [/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]No this whole entire situation taught him something valuable. No one ever should go through this. No one should ever had to go through this. No one ever should feel both useful and useless. There had to be a better way to escort people safely where they needed to go.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]When he reached the goal, or reaching near the goal. He tried to not let his knees go weak from underneath him. But he felt tears stinging his eyes. He turned away from the battle one more time to look at the goal through watery vision because he couldn't stop himself.[/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]This would not help anyone. [/BCOLOR]
[BCOLOR=transparent]He couldn't help them. Save them. Do anything for them. He had to make sure he would pay them back. He had to pay them back. Somehow. Someway.[/BCOLOR]