A huge realization came to me today whilst doing a research paper. A first generation student has many barriers. I have many barriers. My Dad is unsupportive, I feel like he is. I have a huge lack of self-esteem, I'm not confident, and I'm facing all these challenges. I have a D in my college composition class because I didn't turn in one small homework but I got good grades on my other assignments. I have an F in (high school) chemistry that I'm trying to raise. I don't feel motivated enough to carry on. I'm told to not worry about my grades, I'm told to not worry about my GPA. That article I read about barriers for first generation students, it fit me. It was me. That's what I'm going through. It felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders again. I'm unsatisfied with my work, with myself, and I don't feel motivated to continue if I can't give it my all. My dad said he has a great job but it's definitely NOT the job he wants to do or imagined. What does your job have to do with my lack of motivation? You went to college after you signed up for the army. Only then did you decide to get an associate's degree. You have no idea what I'm going through.