Alex Vause was used to being in control, but the last few weeks completely rattled her. Everywhere she went, every time she closed her eyes, all she could see was his face, gasping for breath as his eyes bulged in fear.
Why couldn't he have been dead already? This question she asked herself daily, hourly, cursing Cooper for sending him there in the first place. In life, it was kill or be killed, and she did what anyone else would have done...
right? Her stomached tightened and immediately she felt nauseous, as she did every time her mind wandered to what happened.
It had only been a week since the riot, and a couple days since MCC had sold Litchfield Correctional Facility to some private investor, wishing to rid themselves of their PR disaster. Already, this new
investor had hired a stream of new CO's, replacing the ones who'd quit or been fired. Alex didn't know the details, but new faces seemed to show up every day. There were rumors also flying around the prison that inmates were about to be exchanged with some from up north, another minimum security prison in Maine, but Alex's name wasn't on the list so she didn't really care. Piper was staying too, fortunately, and most of the people she associated with.
It was time for Alex to buckle down, keep her head low, and ride out her remaining time in prison. She hoped eventually her guilt would subside and quit tormenting her. Prison was nothing compared to the demons her head, and Alex was ready for a real nights sleep.
Morning came when Alex realized she hadn't fallen asleep. That surprised her; Piper usually found her during the night, even if it was only to kiss her and tell her everything was going to be okay. But there was no visit last night;
that's odd. Jokingly, she thought about Piper having found someone else to console and manipulate, to love and keep company, but again she shook those thoughts away.
Piper means to stay with me this time, she thought, grabbing her glasses from the table and putting them on.
We're all we have left.