I'm not the type of person to openly state what I really feel, or if I'm hurting. It's a bit hypocritical of me to tell others not to do that themselves, but I've gotten used to it. When I'm irritated I don't really show much expression, and when I feel hurt I just grin and bear it. People when they see me either see me as shy and quiet or happy and cheerful, I tend to switch between both quite often depending on who I'm with. But even when I'm happy and cheerful... Sometimes it's just hard to continue on smiling (Even online, these smiley faces and cheerful sentences are sometimes not really...). I don't want others to see any negative feelings that I have (hate, anger, hurt, etc...) but sometimes I wish they'd be able to tell just a little bit. Sometimes I wish I could just openly tell them I'm mad or annoyed or hurt but then I end up thinking - why should I? It's my own problem, I shouldn't tell anyone. I've gotten into trouble with my family because of this before and even now sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I'll end up doing myself in by simply not saying what I should be saying. Even when I'm alone I don't like being open with myself.