And no, I don't mean the totally awesome band. Back in March I posted a thread in the Girl's Club about Personal Journeys. That's all about sitting down with yourself, listing the things that make you unhappy, and then actively working at solving those problems. This year, many people on Iwaku have been having life and identity crisis, so I figured it was about time to do this in counseling and see who else wants to go on a journey to happiness with me! 8D YAY! Problems come in two parts: THINGS YOU CAN CONTROL AND THINGS YOU CAN'T CONTROL. You have to learn to recognize the difference between them so you can deal with them. This is all about taking active control over your situation and making yourself happy. What I would like you to do is list off the things about you or your life that you feel SUCKS ASS -- and then you will list off what you are going to do about it. I am going to list mine! MY PROBLEMS I KNOW I CAN CONTROL: - I don't get enough personal private time so I can recharge, so I am always feeling emotionally and physically drained. I always feel guilty and like I am neglecting people when I need such long expanses of alone time. - I don't feel pretty or attractive to the point where it causes pointless social anxiety. - I don't take care of my health and body the way I know I should, and I am feeling the affects on it. - I don't have any self discipline when it comes to getting my chores done, so I always feel like I am being a lazy failure and not contributing my fair share to the household. - I don't manage our budget as firmly and as wisely as I know I CAN because I don't want to say no and look like the bad guy. - I just have a problem with saying NO in general, which gets me in to situations I don't want to be in or cause more trouble for me. - I have a lot of things I really want to try or do, but I end up never doing them because I always feel like I don't deserve the time or money spent. - I have a terrible problem with procrastination. And because of that, I've ended up with extra problems I could have avoided. - I feel like I am not a good enough friend to people I love, because I am never the one that reaches out to them, they always have to come seek me out. - I have not gotten enough time to be CREATIVE, in roleplay, writing, or art because I let myself get distracted with other activities. - I feel like I have been a terrible administrator the past few months because I have been too focused and wrapped up in situations and problems that I have no control over. MY PROBLEMS I KNOW I CAN'T CONTROL: - I can't dictate what my family is doing and make them stop making mistakes or doing things I know are making life harder on them. It's their life, they have to live it. - I can't fix the problems of other people, no matter how much I want to. All I can do is listen and it does NOT make me a bad or useless friend. - I can't control how other people think or feel about me. What they think does not affect my life, and I need to let it go and stop letting it interfere with things I want to do. Now we get to the FUN part, where we state what we're currently trying to do for ourselves! WHAT I AM DOING FOR MYSELF SO FAR ON THIS PERSONAL JOURNEY: - For my health, I have been letting Ocha use me as a guinea pig for her Nutrition Business. I've changed a lot of habits and have even lost some weight in the process. :D I still have a long way to go, though. I still need to cut a LOT more sugar from my diet and force more daily exercise in to my routine. I am currently still in the process of replacing processed foods in our pantry with fresh and better alternatives. - To help me feel preeeeeetty again I have been setting aside monies to occasional buy super cute makeup, nail polish, bath products and clothes that I am proud to wear. I am currently trying to get myself in the habit of daily and weekly routines Diana-time routines where I fix up my nails, or have a facial and stuff like that so I feel girly and pretties. - Finding Diana alone time has been a struggle with extra people in the house and constantly changing work schedules. and especially when I feel guilty for hiding on long stretches of time. But I am fiiiinally forcing myself to get some extra Diana-only hours for reading and fiddle-faddling. My next step is working in a more regular routine so I can have daily recharge time! - I am currently working on getting back in to the swing of my daily habits, both as an administrator and as a house elf. I have let a lot of things get me distracted and have made a lot of excuses, and so some are legitimate, most of them are not. I am going to try extra hard not to procrastinate things I need to get done, and to apply a little self discipline to moments I need to get work done! NOW YOU. WHAT IS YOUR PERSONAL JOURNEY. Even the babiest of steps are a step in the right direction!