I've been dealing with depression since middle school. It started because of bullying, and I've been on medication, but I stopped taking it about a year ago. I'm just really tired of everything, it seems like everything is going wrong. My fiancee who I've been with for two years is an asshole. He is constantly fighting with me and my family, he's always putting them down, and saying/doing mean things to me. He never agrees with anything I do or say, or my family either, and he never listens. He's selfish and just an ass. He can be sweet too, but lately, it seems like it's all him being a dick. And my family gets mad at me because I don't clean or get up at an early time, but the thing is.. When I was little, I was spoiled. I didn't do anything, I never cleaned up after myself, I never made myself food, I didn't go anywhere by myself. Nothing. I never had to call or do anything myself. And now that I'm 18, all of a sudden they tell me to grow up, and they want me to do all these things myself, but I don't know how. And on top of it all, I have social anxiety, I can't go out in public, and I can't talk on the phone, It's really bad. But they say it's an excuse and that I need to get over it. They say I'm not doing anything, but I'm trying to get my GED and go to college, it takes time. I can't get a job without a GED. I can't drive, I haven't been taught. And at home, I do clean, I make dinner, I wash my own clothes, I clean the kitchen, I do a lot by myself. But they still push me and push me. And my mom and bf talk through me to get to each other. They say "tell him this" or "tell her this" and never talk to each other, until they get mad and yell at each other. My bf doesn't listen to my mom's rules, and she doesn't listen to us at all. No one listens to me, and I'm put in the middle of everything. And I am so sooo tired of it. I can't even begin to explain how tired I am. I just honestly want to die every day. I want to just jump in front of a car, and this may be dramatic, but fuck. I can't do this- I don't know how, and no one is helping me. My mom says she wants to move to Florida in April, and I'll have no where to go. I can't bring my stuff with us if I go with her, so fuck that. And if she leaves, none of my siblings will take me in. So I'm screwed. I'm just... over all this. It would be so much easier to just die. But I'm too chicken to do it. I'm just screwed any way I look.