I'm back. Kinda, at least. To be honest, times have been tough. I was happy finally, just a few months and happiness was blooming. I had two little twins, a girl and a boy. So adorable and loving and they looked at me with those beautiful eyes, so like my own and I knew I had a purpose. They were frail though. So soft and sick and so very young. They were born too quickly. Too fast and it was bad. They had complications, with lung problems and bone marrow deficiency. And it all just went downhill from there. I had to sit and watch my little babies, never left the hospital- I had to watch my own flesh and blood slowly die before they had ever lived. And truly, it broke me. It broke me to pieces and I couldn't fix myself. Not if my life depended on it. And it hurt ever so much. I had no idea what to do. So I left everything behind and took a year off, to find who I was. And it helped, a little. So. Hi to you all again!