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Levusti
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So I dunno if I am just ungrateful or I am being reasonable.
But lately, now that I have graduated and have found good work with good paying money, I should be satisfied, right?
But I feel like I have an inexplicable, elusive "hole" in myself, specifically in my belly, but it's not hunger cause I just ate so...
But everytime I feel the hole, it always is preceded by the question "How come you didn't pursue your passion?"
And then people ask me what I want to do, and i always respond with, "What do you think I should do?"
After which everyone says "Do what makes you happy."
And I always feel this guilt and regret roller coaster where I think, "Maybe I should..." and then quickly followed by "I should not complain. I've lived a comfortable life with a great paying job, my priorities in order, and my friends and family by my side."
I dunno. I feel like a spoiled, ungrateful brat saying "I don't like what I am doing." when there are literally millions of people who can only wish to be where I am now.
I'm still a kid in my own eyes, still SUPER naive and immature in a world where everyone grows up faster than they want to.
So just wanting to I guess vent and have people justify some of my feelings right now. But I want you to be honest. I don't want sugar coated, fluffy empathetic words said at me if that's not what you feel.
So! Talk to me, guise.
But lately, now that I have graduated and have found good work with good paying money, I should be satisfied, right?
But I feel like I have an inexplicable, elusive "hole" in myself, specifically in my belly, but it's not hunger cause I just ate so...
But everytime I feel the hole, it always is preceded by the question "How come you didn't pursue your passion?"
And then people ask me what I want to do, and i always respond with, "What do you think I should do?"
After which everyone says "Do what makes you happy."
And I always feel this guilt and regret roller coaster where I think, "Maybe I should..." and then quickly followed by "I should not complain. I've lived a comfortable life with a great paying job, my priorities in order, and my friends and family by my side."
I dunno. I feel like a spoiled, ungrateful brat saying "I don't like what I am doing." when there are literally millions of people who can only wish to be where I am now.
I'm still a kid in my own eyes, still SUPER naive and immature in a world where everyone grows up faster than they want to.
So just wanting to I guess vent and have people justify some of my feelings right now. But I want you to be honest. I don't want sugar coated, fluffy empathetic words said at me if that's not what you feel.
So! Talk to me, guise.
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