I have come to a realization that I'm not exactly... ready for this. I really need time away to deal with IRL things before I decide to make a commitment to a website that has a community which is always active. It's very daunting for me as I have an unhealthy online addiction that needs to be mended. That cannot be done by coming here and thinking I'm ready. I have to know I'm ready and I failed that with my sudden realization of today. I hope to be back but right now, it's a bit early for me to start something here and thinking i can be responsible for academics alongside this is not my forte right now. Sorry.