Alone Together
You will always be here
as a secret in my ear
Alluring as can be,
talking in my head constantly
Sweet reminders so cruel
of desires both hot and cool
Standing chest-to-chest,
our forms tightly pressed
Feeling light as a feather
with our fingers linked together
So swiftly our pulses run,
yet they're beating as one
Alone together in the night,
we know nothing is more right
Soft tunes of yearning
born from passions burning
Drawing patterns, sighing names
Sharing love without shame
Ignoring the laws of time
in this fantasy so sublime
Observing your gentleness and charm
as your lips trace down my arm
You compliment my scars,
saying, "Such a strong person you are"
While you kiss me with thought
for all the battles I've fought
And that's when I quietly say,
"You take the pain away"
You're the drug that numbs my ache,
the one who holds me when I break
And for all that you do
I hope to cure you, too
Beside you I'd stay,
to kiss you all day
While you shiver from
what pleasures are to come
The infernos I breathe in
turn to chills on your skin
You earn this delight
when you touch me just right
A lovely thought it is,
just you and me, always feeling like this
Holding your face in my view
so I can always remember you
You'll watch as I stare,
with my hand in your hair
Already wondering when
we can be happy like this again
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From Trust to Dust
"Learn to trust
Learn this, you must"
Over and over,
it's been discussed
"Just give it time
and you'll adjust"
Well-meant beliefs that
inevitably combust
In their shells, hopes decay
Lively colors fade to gray
Somehow, I must have lost my way
Stumbling into this world
where the locals 'prey'
instead of 'pray'
Frigid words all dressed in pity
The rage it caused, it wasn't pretty
Probably wept enough to flood a city
While my empire once strong
turns ruinous and gritty
Promises broken like fragile bones
are buried beneath
a cheaply made tombstone
Just remains of what was
so carelessly thrown
into the malnourished dirts of
a graveyard lesser-known
"Learn to trust
Learn this you must"
Preached on and on
Despite my constant disgust
from trust after trust after trust
getting turned into dust
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Concrete Heart
When we happened to meet
I was hiding from you
The emotional retreats
are defensive things I do
I wander harmful streets
without the aid of shoes
There is hellish, fiery heat
from which I can't be rescued
Yet, you kept being sweet
You said, "Let me help you."
Soon, the ground under my feet
was carpeted, good as new
I had sensed no deceit
as our bond grew and grew
And then I lifted the sheet
that blocked your truths from my view
The rug beneath my feet,
you were quick to undo
You saw reason to mistreat
You saw reason to askew
The song in my heartbeat
must have unsettled you
You chose to be indiscreet
about my curse, and loose screws
The day of that defeat
I started to hate you
If only I could delete
All this pain you put me through
Strength in my heart repletes
Sadly, it hardened too
Filling my chest with concrete
Just seems much safer to do
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Ever Known
Happiness--true happiness
Now that is something
I've never known
Though unfortunate,
it's a fact in stone
Therapists treat joy as something
I have to be taught and shown
It always felt so pointless, but...
it's a routine well-known
I confess, I'm fading
I hide behind my alters more,
I've also hardened as I've grown
Too often, I've fallen apart, and
too often, I've been resewn
Broken pieces is all I am
And the only 'me' I've known
As far as I'm concerned
I'll always be alone
Even in a room of family
it's just
the life I've always known
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Doctor, Dear
I can't be fixed
But I can be treated
Doctor, I'm afraid
My meds have depleted
It seems incurable,
This numbness of mine
I'm a cold, burned-out star
Who got robbed of their shine
So, it hurts, but it hurts so good
Whenever I actually
feel
It's an addictive rush of joy
To realize it's something
real
Please, doctor, prescribe me
Several doses more
Of these remedial sensations
That I've never felt before
Give me happiness
Instead of a happy pill
Something to aid me
When I've fallen ill
No one has to know
Our secret, doctor dear
No one has to know
About our arrangement here
If I list off my symptoms
Will you be gentle with me?
Can you promise, Doctor,
You're as trusting as can be?
If so, I'll make a promise, too
I'll promise to be
A good patient to you