Natalia | London | Rooftop
"Ex-military, I left after the order to kill innocents was given," Matthew answered. He continued up the fire escape up to the top, "So from the looks of it you're both free runners, great I feel a bit left out of that," he said just before Natalia motioned leaving, "One thing army thought me was to stick in groups and you're the only people I've met so far other than the seekers in a bit." He turned towards Natalia, "You sure you want to try and live on your own you don't look like you can defend your self with anything but your fist? What do you think Duncan?"
Natalia turned back to face them in spite of herself and snorted with open scorn. Like either of them had the right to discuss her decision. Natalia raised an eyebrow critically. "Well obviously I've done fine so far." Despite her reaction her feet seemed glued to the roof.
"Well, military lad... I agree to ye fulleh. Allas, you lost most of yer supplies back the'e, and we culd work togetha to loot properly... And le's all be honest he'e, we have ha' zeru contact with anybody, so sticking togetha seems logical. 'sides, there's more o' them than us now. We oughtta stick it out togetha, y'know? Maybe thay'll starve eventually." He said with a bright tone to his voice. Duncan placed his right hand over the barrel of his rifle as he looked on over towards the street, the undead appearing never the less decayed. "So, watcha thinkin'? Or don't ye trust us?" Duncan tilted his head to the right somewhat as he said this, his gaze away from Natalia as he glanced over pit that would soon be filled with the undead, unless they began to get a move on soon: at the very least.
Natalia glared at Duncan for being able to see through her so easily. Of course she didn't trust them. She didn't trust anyone. She felt at ease in the silence of her own mind, not having to worry about other people on top of dodging the dead. She remembered how it had been at first, after the initial outbreak. She had found herself suddenly and utterly alone. And despite the moans and groans of the monsters it had been so terribly quiet without anyone to talk to. She had been more scared than she had been in her entire life but somehow she found the will to keep going. Probably because she had been in denial the whole time. Eventually the silence had become peaceful and the denial made her strong, giving her confidence. Perhaps the only reason she'd survived so far was because she hadn't formed any attachments.
But she had to begrudgingly admit the three of them did make a good team. Their skills complemented each other. And what if she did get in another situation where she couldn't defend herself? Shit. Natalia glared at both of them for making her doubt herself. And yet they weren't trying to force her to stay, they were nicely trying to convince her. Natalia frowned. Could niceness really get anyone anywhere now days? Yet Natalia found herself imagining what it would be like to have someone watching her back, someone who (hopefully) wouldn't try to eat her. That offered a whole different kind of security, yet left her feeling painfully vulnerable. She would have to
trust someone other than herself.
That seemed like...too much. Natalia turned to try and leave again. She'd only taken a few steps when she felt like her chest was imploding. What the heck? Was that a...anxiety attack? The thought of just walking away forever from the only other relatively decent humans she was likely to encounter...well it seemed impossible to do. Natalia sighed and took a few more steps forward. On a whim she glanced back over her shoulder. They were both just standing there staring.
"Well?" Natalia said impatiently as if staying together had been her idea all along. "Are you two coming?" Staying there much longer would be hazardous. She said nothing about deciding weather or not to join their group, but this was the best she could do for now. Once they were back to her secure rooftop (or wherever, if one of them had a better spot) she would be able to see how she felt about the whole ordeal.