Sometimes.... only like two or three times out the year... My little four - six year old self comes back to haunt me, and I can not deal with any type of darkness. Have to Sleep with lights and everything in that sense. I get so jumpy at that point as well, that any noise scares the hell out of me. And then I start thinking that reality is nothing but a dream and I go into this sense of self that I'm walking in a dream and nothing is real..e.e It gets to the point that I feel like the only thing alive and that I'm walking in the past.
Confessing past mess ups and apologizing to people for my actions. I've done a lot to make people hurt in some way, and I've always been afraid to go back and face them again. For example: When I was younger, I was apart of my neighbor's house burning down, where he lost everything in that house, and then he moved to New Orleans, where a year later his house was hit by Katrina and he lost everything again. I don't think I would ever be able to face him or his family (for I knew his wife and kid), ever again. It' something that I feel most guilty for, and the fear of facing them is overwhelming. Mainly it would be because he was a good friend to us, and I would be at his house a lot playing outside with his daughter. It's something that is impossible for me to forget, and yet impossible for me to face them again.
And I also despise anything that flies and has a stinger. Bees, wasps, hornets...etc. Any other insect or reptile or animal I deathly love. :3