I could gather that much once I had found it. :P
But once again I was never informed of such a thing, which might be from the whole "Picking the scab way too much" thing you mentioned in our PM's a while back.
Or maybe it's cause I just don't tend to start much PM discussions (as in if you send me a PM I'll reply, but I often don't think to send one out myself casually. It usually needs to have a purpose behind it).
I tend to forget that there's a whole "Off site/Behind scenes" communication that goes on with people, cause I'm so focused on the big/public one where everyone is involved.
To be fair, I never used the Skype or IRC groups. I just... poke around in other places, I guess. *shrugs*
It got to me too. :/
Granted it helped when the admins officially called out those who were going "If you're not happy then GTFO!" and stated the admins and mods held no such views.
But we lost too many people, the community was left barren too long without anything happening.
And when actual attempts with WOTM and Mdk's proposed contest were being planned to counteract they couldn't even be bothered to open a simply thread and then let us do all the work for them.
I don't even wanna ramble about WOTM. I'd come off as too angsty.
I've never had such a problem, I guess I got too used killing time on RPs, Video Games etc. as a kid (Probably as an escape from over demanding therapy at the time... I think I just learned something about myself today XD) that I made it my comfort spot/zone, so I don't tend to feel odd or out of place when involved in such things and not working or piled with school work.
Well yeah, as a kid I
breathed TV, books and video games. I wasn't a workaholic as a kid. That was just one of the things that came with my minor personality transformation that happened after I was diagnosed with ADD only a few years back.
In most cases, I see that personality transformation as a positive thing. ...However, I still feel weird having a long break.
Though if you're already mixing shows and you still feel odd, maybe mix it up more?
Like, less doctor who more other stuff?
Or fit in more RPs, Video Games, General Chat, IRC etc?
I've sort of already been doing that. In fact, earlier today, I thought I'd found the most awesome RP to join, and I brainstormed some characters using that tarot card thing that I saw advertised on the lower banner, and then... I noticed that the GM hadn't posted on the thread in several weeks, despite other members still doing stuff, aaand a visit to their profile revealed that the GM seems to have a history of unreliability. And then I didn't wanna waste time writing CS's for an RP that was already withering away thanks to a vanishing GM.
I don't know how I don't have abandonment issues yet.
But either way, that killed my RPing buzz for the time being.
And then I was like "I'M IN THE MOOD FOR SHERLOCK", (~2 hours later) "NOW I DON'T HAVE ANY SHERLOCK". Which brings me to my current predicament. (I mean not that I can really watch more than one episode of Sherlock in one sitting
anyway but yeah.)
Hopefully it'll get easier to do more things now that my stepsiblings are finally out of the house and I once again have far more access to the TV and Wii... those things were nigh impossible to get to when they were over. The only times when I'd be able to use them were when I would be too afraid to because I wouldn't want to wake anyone up.
I'd probably be watching more Yu-Yu-Hakusho right now if my brother and his friend hadn't taken the TV.
Maybe I should open up that Spectrobe game that I bought for $4 while in college and then didn't have the time to play so I never even opened it... I figured it would make more sense to finish Spore first but I'm not really feeling that one so yeah maybe I'll just skip to a series I already know that I like...
Maybe make a mini-project to work on for fun, but requires tasks that still sort of work like.
So you can focus some time on that and not feel so odd about being in a 6 week break period.
*shakes head* No. That's not a good idea.
I've had a long history of impulse projects that never get finished and they make me feel sad looking back at them. Without some reason to keep going I know that I'll run out of steam on day 2.