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Eliza just sort of shut down. If Rhett hadn't save her, again, she would have been babbling on like an idiot trying to find any possible way to explain how she managed to have two dead parents, killed by a man who posed as a father figure and her entire life had been one big orchestrated plot by a psychopath and a murderer. No, that certainly wasn't dinner conversation and she caught Nikki's eyes reading hr trying to figure out just what she was going to say. Great. Super. Now Eliza was disliked and crazy and she just felt like a complete waste of space. No wonder they didn't like her, though. No foster home ever did, that was apparent by the glaring messages left on her back and the abandonment that scarred her heart.
She didn't even know why she tried anymore. No, of course she did. She tried because Eliza Madison just wanted to be loved and accepted but it got so hard. If she was open and vulnerable, people walked all over her, and when she was cold and protective, they strayed away. Sometimes she wondered why Rhett even bothered, but she shook the thoughts from her mind and finished up her breakfast. Even her favorite meal of the day had lost its appeal and that was serious for her. She would never turn down breakfast, never in a million years.
Rhett found a way to excuse them and his mother jumped on it quickly. Let's talk later, just mother son. Eliza brought her hands up to her face to brush her hair back, her shoulder screaming out at the motion but she couldn't do it. She needed a moment of clarity and to just be alone, with Rhett, without all of this stress or fear. She hated feeling like this, she hated feeling like she was worthless because it had taken her so long and so many years at the Academy to not feel like that. She made herself strong, powerful, the kind of girl who didn't take anyone's shit because she could throw it right back, but a few sharp tailed words and a look made her feel like that worthless little seven year old girl being shipped back to Linda because, once again, she wasn't what they wanted.
And as the scar accumulated and the fear set in, more and more people left her because it was easier. Even Rhett had thought her cold when they first met, but she was trying — she was trying so hard and the fact the she was failing made her skin crawl and every injury on her body cry out.
"Thank you, Mrs. Wolfhart," Eliza said graciously, her words warm though she could feel the anxiety welling up inside, "Breakfast was wonderful."
Eliza squeezed Rhett's hand. She just needed him.
She didn't even know why she tried anymore. No, of course she did. She tried because Eliza Madison just wanted to be loved and accepted but it got so hard. If she was open and vulnerable, people walked all over her, and when she was cold and protective, they strayed away. Sometimes she wondered why Rhett even bothered, but she shook the thoughts from her mind and finished up her breakfast. Even her favorite meal of the day had lost its appeal and that was serious for her. She would never turn down breakfast, never in a million years.
Rhett found a way to excuse them and his mother jumped on it quickly. Let's talk later, just mother son. Eliza brought her hands up to her face to brush her hair back, her shoulder screaming out at the motion but she couldn't do it. She needed a moment of clarity and to just be alone, with Rhett, without all of this stress or fear. She hated feeling like this, she hated feeling like she was worthless because it had taken her so long and so many years at the Academy to not feel like that. She made herself strong, powerful, the kind of girl who didn't take anyone's shit because she could throw it right back, but a few sharp tailed words and a look made her feel like that worthless little seven year old girl being shipped back to Linda because, once again, she wasn't what they wanted.
And as the scar accumulated and the fear set in, more and more people left her because it was easier. Even Rhett had thought her cold when they first met, but she was trying — she was trying so hard and the fact the she was failing made her skin crawl and every injury on her body cry out.
"Thank you, Mrs. Wolfhart," Eliza said graciously, her words warm though she could feel the anxiety welling up inside, "Breakfast was wonderful."
Eliza squeezed Rhett's hand. She just needed him.