Hey everyone :) Until a few weeks ago, I was battling myself with depression. Like. Otherworldly stuff and I plunged down further and further until finally it kind of calmed down. These days I feel better, but I feel hollow and if I remember what my past friends did to me, I feel a kind of anger that's hard to keep under control. I found out that making use of certain alternative solutions I found of herbs and essences helps. It does help a lot, especially because I get a lot of tension headaches and migraines but why did it have to be so? The fact I feel like I'm talking to the wall when all my friends decided to back stab me kind of haunts me though. Sure I'm trying to cure myself from heartbreak and it's hard. Having wasted a year of my life, on delusional in existential crap drove me insane, paranoid amongst other things. I'm in reality a no strings attached kind of person, but if I'm also the kind of friend that will go out of her way to help you if you need it and whilst I don't have expectations of any kind, when I needed any kind of help. Guess what? - I found none. Except me, myself and I. Having trouble finding writing partners is also annoying me up to certain degrees. Of course all this nonsense made me kind of stronger, however doesn't everyone need a shoulder to rest on sometimes even if it's just to relax. It still works wonders. Well now that I got all this off my chest, tell me what you think, flame me if you must, just don't debase yourself to derogatory speech. It's annoying.