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Midnight_Star
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I really am not sure how to even structure this thread... I suppose I could start with an explanation on why I felt the need to bring this thread into existence. I mentioned in my blog post that I've had some "internal conflict", though I neglected to talk about this conflict, for a number of reasons, the most prominent of which being that I didn't feel it an appropriate time or setting to do so. This wild tangent aside, let's actually get to the reason that THIS is here. Throughout the course of my life (16 and about 3/4 years thus far), I've dealt with many... issues, I suppose the word is, but not quite and I'll get to why I say "not quite" at a later date. But anyhow, I frequent complete breakdowns. Breakdowns in which I cry for a few minutes to a seemingly endless amount of time (the durations fluctuate at random, so I don't know how long for sure). I also tend to bring minor bodily harm to myself within these breakdowns, whether it's through beating myself against the frame of my bed or the wall, or even cutting... These breakdowns have no specific trigger and tend to happen at night, which prevents me from being able to sleep, though I already get little to no sleep on a regular basis, so this isn't too much a hinderence to me. Now, I do have reason for my depressive state as well as other minor things I'll mention another time. But I felt that the item of primary importance for now was the breakdowns. I know that my thoughts were poorly coordinated through this, but I don't know what to do. These breakdowns are getting worse and my parents don't believe that anything is wrong with me and that this is regular teenage behavior... I figured that I'd ask for opinions here without sounding as though I'm trying to seek attention... Anyhow, if you bothered to read this mess of a post, thank you very much and thoughts of any kind are appreciated. Bye for now,
~Midnight
~Midnight