Thank you. & I know. I've got it watched. ;) I'm just terrible with missing notifications and when that happens, I always go straight to the OOC for the link. Iwaku gets me lost and somehow I always end up in the wrong section going three pages back before I realize "Oh... I'm in the Bedroom. No wonder these are all 1x1s and kinky."
Finally read the IC and it's brilliant. I'm coming up with ideas and I should be able to get a post in tomorrow afternoon or Friday. No later than that. I'm really liking Luke as a character, btw. He reminds me a lot of people that I work with and I like that. Seems like a really nice guy that the world went to hell on.
Yes, it's exactly how Luke is suppose to read. I wanted him to be homeless and suffering from addiction not because he was an addict. But because circumstances in his life made him an addict.
Nobody understands the torture and torment being socially isolated is like. It messes with your head in a way I cannot explain. I have paranoid schizophrenic, but I am not going to lie when I say I use to be an alcoholic. I have been clean for almost three years. And it wasn't because I was some idle wash out who was an addict.
I was depressed. And I was dealing with a lot of mental health issues. I was also not on my medication.
I have been through homelessness myself as well. All not circumstances I could control. I have a hard time due to mental health issues in keeping jobs.
And people treat you like a parasite. You feel like a parasite. No matter how good of a person you are, you just feel like nasty, dirty gum, that lost its stick on the bottom of your shoe. You know the kind of gum you forget to scrape off, and its just this horrible tumor stuck at your heel forever kind of gum.
It tears you apart in a way that is indescribable and extremely painful. You lose all sense of your humanity.
Luke didn't go crazy and homeless because he was crazy and homeless. He went crazy because he went to prison, then came back to be tossed aside and isolated further. He became homeless because of circumstances, that turned him crazy and alone. And without support you just descend further and further into that kind of madness.
