Okay let me give you the bigger picture about myself. I'm a nineteen year old autistic girl from California, I'm a huge irresponsible nerd who won't clean her room, won't do her laundry and fights with her grandparents at every single opportunity that she has and never wants to get along with anyone. I had only one friend when I was nine years old and her name was Alexis, and she is the one who interests me to this whole roleplaying genre and led my life to the living hell that it was today. She basically decided to never contact me again and that led me to having no social skills whatsoever, or at least that's what I think. Now that I'm nineteen things have gone slightly better and slightly worse slightly better I joined this site and one other roleplay site I can sing in japanese and have decided on what career I wanted to do I am getting help with my social skills The Worser Condodrum I have forever lost contact with my father and my mother passed away, my grandmother wants to leave or kill herself I was diagnosed with migraines, vertigo and several other weird diseases my social skills have reached an all time low and I feel slightly secluded almost to the point of severe depression at times my parents want me sent away somewhere till I learn to behave I fret about my partners not roleplaying with me and become quite hateful if they don't reply I doubt anyone is listening to this but if you are. HELP ME!