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Almost mindlessly, she wandered for a moment or two. Her distant expression a proof of how far her mind was, how preoccupied she became. Eyes aimlessly brushed along the horizon ragged by the thatched rooftops. So much has happened and she never had as much as a moment to stop and think about it all. She never took the time to do so. With a heart heavier than the darkest nights buried under thunderclouds, Satyra took her own way out of the village, knowing Merrek would be waiting somewhere, but unable to seek him out yet. She was unaware of the conversation the Dealer had with the Priest; unaware that just a few moments earlier the saint one has just made it into the forest. But she needed a little longer on her own. After all, harmony was something she needed to reclaim by herself.
Passing the edge of the village, she knew that she could find temporary solace within the arms of the man who loved her. Yet, she still felt shame from her previous action and it added to her overall desperation for peace. She has already faced enough disappointment from Etos to confront even more from the Dealer who undoubtedly felt so. What happened in the Hall... It was not her. She couldn't become that...whatever it was. She never defied the Elders so openly, so harshly. As much as she thought the hurricane of unsettled mind was gone, it's remaining storms still clouded her thoughts and only when she broke the tree line, the shade of the woods cooling her skin, Satyra allowed herself to shiver, tremble to her very core with feelings that she denied herself to feel. The sensation of never really having gained control over herself, ever since her first change. Her feet carried her in the direction she desired to go, and with each step a fresh weight descended on her shoulders. Oh how she missed him. How she missed his guidance. His kind words and hands around her when she felt as lost as she was now. How she desired to just speak to him one more time...
Her legs finally gave up under her as she arrived at the lonely stone within the forest. Unmarked. Aged with weather. Scarred. But as much as it reminded her of him, he was long gone, having rejoined the flow and the essence of the mother Goddess. Long was gone the deep rumble of his voice that sounded like the growl of a bear - wild but strong and reassuring. Her eyelids closed, picturing her father on the black canvas just as she drew him from memory and hung that picture above her table. The breeze that rustled the branches above her wasn't wind anymore. Those where whispers in her mind. Whispers from him to give her strength, caress her skin, brush away the brewing tear from the corner of her eye. "I'm lost, father." She whispered to no one but the empty space around her. "I love.. but the one I love is not one of our own. I want to defend us...but I am afraid..." It was said that memories and strong feelings could leave their mark in space, seep into the ground and live on. Hence, Satyra felt the presence of the only other man that ever mattered in her life more than Merrek almost come into being next to her.
Her subconscious brought out the scent associated with her father. The woods...He was a shaman. The Woodlands were his second home, yet he fell prey to its predators and on the bending grass that air danced upon with its light feet, she knew what he would say. 'Stay strong, my sweetest. Your core will guide you.' It was not heart for it was too prone to instability by emotions. It wasn't mind for it was too logical and apt to disregarding discrepancies. It was the core where the two were united and came into balance. Satyra's lack of harmony stemmed in conflict of the two. Her heart was willing to follow the man she loved, abandoning those she cared for. Yet, her mind condemned such an action as absurd, too radical. Her mind was afraid of the consequences if she were to follow her heart. 'Close you eyes, Satyra. Feel your way through the forest.' He would tell her when they'd go on expeditions into the Woodlands when she was a child. Right now, she was lost in the forest of her own discord.
Her father would be the one to bring back stories of beasts no one has heard of, ignite the imagination of children with tales so charming they could only be found in the Sanctuary. But he was also the man of truth. Inside all his stories lied a veracity. Could she find it inside her own? She was a woman of strength and determination like her mother - the voice of reason; yet she loved her freedom and open-mindedness just like her father. She was no different to the others inside the village, but somehow she was no longer the same. "Who am I..." She whispered to the stone protruding from the soft earth. No one could expect Satyra to continue living the life of a simple life forcer. She was no longer just that. Yet, no one could either ask her to separate herself from her tribe. She was no longer herself, just like Etos said, but that did not mean she was a different person entirely. With a soft sweep of a wave of serenity that washed over the sorceress, she was brought out of this self-induced meditation, her mind becoming aware of everything. The gift from the phoenix allowing her to feel all that was living and the threads no longer felt out of reach. She could feel the distinct colourful threads that despite being alien to her world fitted right. Middle ground was hard to find, but as long as she was willing to accept this new self she still had to explore, as long as she no longer clung to the image of someone she no longer was, Satyra could hope to maintain the newly found harmony. I am sorry for having left you. She spoke on their web of connection, whichever of the aspects it might reach first, standing to her feet.
Passing the edge of the village, she knew that she could find temporary solace within the arms of the man who loved her. Yet, she still felt shame from her previous action and it added to her overall desperation for peace. She has already faced enough disappointment from Etos to confront even more from the Dealer who undoubtedly felt so. What happened in the Hall... It was not her. She couldn't become that...whatever it was. She never defied the Elders so openly, so harshly. As much as she thought the hurricane of unsettled mind was gone, it's remaining storms still clouded her thoughts and only when she broke the tree line, the shade of the woods cooling her skin, Satyra allowed herself to shiver, tremble to her very core with feelings that she denied herself to feel. The sensation of never really having gained control over herself, ever since her first change. Her feet carried her in the direction she desired to go, and with each step a fresh weight descended on her shoulders. Oh how she missed him. How she missed his guidance. His kind words and hands around her when she felt as lost as she was now. How she desired to just speak to him one more time...
Her legs finally gave up under her as she arrived at the lonely stone within the forest. Unmarked. Aged with weather. Scarred. But as much as it reminded her of him, he was long gone, having rejoined the flow and the essence of the mother Goddess. Long was gone the deep rumble of his voice that sounded like the growl of a bear - wild but strong and reassuring. Her eyelids closed, picturing her father on the black canvas just as she drew him from memory and hung that picture above her table. The breeze that rustled the branches above her wasn't wind anymore. Those where whispers in her mind. Whispers from him to give her strength, caress her skin, brush away the brewing tear from the corner of her eye. "I'm lost, father." She whispered to no one but the empty space around her. "I love.. but the one I love is not one of our own. I want to defend us...but I am afraid..." It was said that memories and strong feelings could leave their mark in space, seep into the ground and live on. Hence, Satyra felt the presence of the only other man that ever mattered in her life more than Merrek almost come into being next to her.
Her subconscious brought out the scent associated with her father. The woods...He was a shaman. The Woodlands were his second home, yet he fell prey to its predators and on the bending grass that air danced upon with its light feet, she knew what he would say. 'Stay strong, my sweetest. Your core will guide you.' It was not heart for it was too prone to instability by emotions. It wasn't mind for it was too logical and apt to disregarding discrepancies. It was the core where the two were united and came into balance. Satyra's lack of harmony stemmed in conflict of the two. Her heart was willing to follow the man she loved, abandoning those she cared for. Yet, her mind condemned such an action as absurd, too radical. Her mind was afraid of the consequences if she were to follow her heart. 'Close you eyes, Satyra. Feel your way through the forest.' He would tell her when they'd go on expeditions into the Woodlands when she was a child. Right now, she was lost in the forest of her own discord.
Her father would be the one to bring back stories of beasts no one has heard of, ignite the imagination of children with tales so charming they could only be found in the Sanctuary. But he was also the man of truth. Inside all his stories lied a veracity. Could she find it inside her own? She was a woman of strength and determination like her mother - the voice of reason; yet she loved her freedom and open-mindedness just like her father. She was no different to the others inside the village, but somehow she was no longer the same. "Who am I..." She whispered to the stone protruding from the soft earth. No one could expect Satyra to continue living the life of a simple life forcer. She was no longer just that. Yet, no one could either ask her to separate herself from her tribe. She was no longer herself, just like Etos said, but that did not mean she was a different person entirely. With a soft sweep of a wave of serenity that washed over the sorceress, she was brought out of this self-induced meditation, her mind becoming aware of everything. The gift from the phoenix allowing her to feel all that was living and the threads no longer felt out of reach. She could feel the distinct colourful threads that despite being alien to her world fitted right. Middle ground was hard to find, but as long as she was willing to accept this new self she still had to explore, as long as she no longer clung to the image of someone she no longer was, Satyra could hope to maintain the newly found harmony. I am sorry for having left you. She spoke on their web of connection, whichever of the aspects it might reach first, standing to her feet.