Tenuous Conviction

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A place for me to write, or place art, though it's very likely that it will only seldom be updated with new things.

They come to me with their questions,
Those earnest eyes afire with biblical blaze.
I know that he wants a simple answer to his query
“Do you believe in your savior?”
More than anything.
My deliverance did not come in the form of religion;
It was six feet tall, with black hair
And a painful cocaine addiction.
True, the catalyst of my rebirth was love
But there’s nothing ethereal
About a teenage drug addict.
At a time when I was too weak to stand on my own,
The hand that lifted me was bathed in tears and sin.
This is my truth.

Incandescent light,
Luminescent glory,
I beg you, bathe me
In a sea of your
Shining silver blood.

Coat me in dark night
Wash me with moonbeams
Let the stars watch me
As I breathe the sky’s
Pale radiance
 
These are very beautiful, Kitti. I was able to paint a mental picture for each one, especially the Religion piece. :]
 
Light of my dawn
Peace in my dusk
Winter's not far enough gone
To yet emerge from your brittle husk
Shield yourself for another day
Wait patiently and bide your time
For I can feel the passing decay
Yield to spring's hopeful chime
Soon, you will know the beauty you bring
No longer will I alone embrace you
With care, I'll help you take to wing, knowing
The world will love you anew

I can be sad you see
And still be proud of all you'll be.
 
Please tell me that you're happy
A thousand miles away
And that underneath this morning sun
There's a light that shines in your eyes
Lidded now by sleep
But dreaming of all the things
That make you smile

Rêve de moi
Une prière silencieuse, je ne peut pas parler
Rêve de moi ce soir

Here I will wake
As nothing, still
You should know that
I've always been nothing
Simply the one standing there in awe
Underneath the morning sun
Awash in the glow

Rêve de moi
Une prière silencieuse, je ne peut pas parler
Rêve de moi ce soir
 
I'm feeling somewhat ... inspired tonight.

I'm alone with all my thoughts
Which are slipping through my fingers
Even as I try to pen down what exactly
Those words which are whispered to me are saying

My wishes are to drown them out
These voices which speak in my thoughts
Whose questions I cannot suppress
Though they're such trivial things
Ils aspirent à connaître votre parfum
Cannot help them from wondering
Answers that I may never know and
Sleepless nights bring no comfort
To those who will stay awake
Oh, le désir de voir votre sourire
Forsaken by rest
There's a numbness to the feeling
Or an coldness that won't subside
Something which keeps eyes open
 
You write beautifully, Kitti! I enjoyed them very much.
 
I liked those very much, Kitti. You should keep delving into your creativity, and see what else you come up.
 
"But oh how I love your freedom..." Tether yourself to me.
"And oh how I love your pride..." Won't you return?

I thought of you today
Rather, I saw glimpses of another life
Visions that lace the sunlight with broken glass
Shattered by flowers, who can only consume and make
Those dappled patches on otherwise golden grass

There isn't any rain today
And this time of year, there are no roses
Instead, the unyielding brown earth
As well as horror
Tears that maybe could make those flowers grow

You can't understand
Why, you shift phases with the sun
Whose light gave us life and tries to choke us
But you also can't see
I'm looking through memories and I can't find your eyes

There is darkness inside of me
Like the flowers
Or more like that haunting melody
Something beautiful turned ugly
Still, I search for what I have lost
 
Your writing is amazing, Kitti. o_o;
I love it.
Now I feel I should delete my poetry thread. >_>;

Teehee~ Keep up the creativity and your muse of poetry. <3
 
Thank you, it means a lot to me that you like it~
 
Words that I want to say
Rest heavy on my tongue
Granule sugar I cannot swallow
So sweet, I feel the burn

There never seems to be
Enough time to tell you
Everything I've pent up
In the end, I stumble a lot

But you just keep calling
As though you know the things
I wish to say to you
And you're coaxing the words from me
 
For you, I've stumbled
Picked myself up
Only to find myself falling
Once more, to your arms

While I was resting here, I was
Learning to mimic the sounds
That I felt resonating
From inside of my head

Full of tenuous conviction
I told you everything
All that I had learned
Now, a useless sentence

Things that I wanted to say
Held close to my heart but finally
Shared with you
Now it's nothing more than tears spilt

Prideful, I let show
These things I had hidden
Away from prying eyes
Divulged to you

No regrets, only an ache
But I want you to know
With each passing breath
I'm still whispering to you

Now is not the time
This is no place
I'll say it anyway
Refusing to let you go
 
You hold me entranced in the palm of your hand.
I love you more than words can begin, but I can't begin.
If none will accept our love, let us burn together by their hand.
Let us be buried, our ashes intermixed.
 
Loveless and her poem inspired me. x_x

The sky stayed still
And held its breath
As she turned slowly
Heels lifted upward
Toes firmly in the sand
Head thrown back
Tears flowing down
Leaving stains on satin cheeks
Pale beneath moonlight
She glowed ephemeral
Alone with her sorrow
While I watched
Wishing I could know
The cause of her grief
 
When you lift me up like this
Worlds appear for me in your eyes
Those depths I see promise things
Futures filled like only wild dreams
Your arms seduce me with ideas
Imaginings at another life
What-ifs and could have beens
Had I only fallen in love with you

Cunning and clever as can be
Within you, I do not see flaw
Rather it can be said that I
Adore you, wholly
Doubtless you are a worthy man
But you are an idea to me
Intangible and abstract
I never saw you
 
On soft green grass
Fresh and new, full of life
We made our promises
Did you forget?

Let me remind you:
Under the timid warmth of spring
You promised we'd grow up intertwined
Why would you lie?

Don't say that you never meant to
Lies are lies, all the same
I was counting on you
How could you throw that away?
 
"My Friend" is a new favourite of mine, Miss Kittu. <3
 
Once, I swam alone
Far out into the sea
Into the dark waters
With this, I was content.

Then there was you
Who convinced me
That I was drowning
And you were my savior.

Believing, I held on
For dear life, as we sank
But then I realized
You were pulling me under.

What choice did I have
I pushed you away
Kicked and splashed
Until I regained my bearings.
 
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