Tainted Pen

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  1. T A I N T E D ~~ P E N
    Poems by Crimson Cowboy

    Tainted Pen

    As i write i look behind
    Constantly in fear.
    Paranoia grips my heart,
    i hide what i hold dear.
    try as they might,
    They'll never find
    the man behind the pen
    For as he writes
    he's dead inside
    and knows he cannot win
    printed facts
    are painted black
    to which, we all begin
    and as i write
    i laugh in spite
    and grip my
    tainted pen


    Consumed by long, torn twisted fate.
    My endless days are cast.
    Into a sea of darkened thoughts
    a mind thats painted black.

    All within, It's all the end.
    I hope thats all, at least
    To start again, I'll never win
    Shaking, I face the beast

    Swallowed whole, by my own thoughts
    Swallowed once again.
    Swallowed pride, last chance, I lied
    Swallowed, lost to sin

    A half, last glance, I tempted
    Another burnt out night
    Looking towards the darkness
    Blocked out was the light

    I took a chance to seek it
    The fate that owns my soul
    Another door, I'll take it.
    my story must be told

    Swallowed like a tiny fish
    Swallowed by the whale
    Swallowed as I swim for life
    Swallowed as I fail.

    (more to come)

    • Love Love x 1
  2. Precious Nocturnal

    Towards the night, awake I sit.
    Do you know her name?
    Leaving me in gentle cast
    Vowed to never change
    So while I stay asleep all day
    Peeking through the haze
    No one knows the love I have

    It leaves the dawn at bay.
  3. Off the top

    Does anyone know what I really am?
    In this hollow shell
    Evil in my hand

    Bringing with me hatred
    Into this life I thrust
    Telling me to die
    Calling me to lust
    Having with me endless
    Deeds I've yet to fill
    In my heart is chaos
    End this, I know I will.
  4. Eaten alive

    Should I walk alone, I will.
    Having none within.
    Either that or die from pain
    Change, I cannot win.
    Heart is scarred
    enough to jar
    at least there is a hope.
    Through my guts
    Enough's enough
    Dying, I try to cope.
  5. Under cooked, I'm raw and limp
    My dreams may end like this.
    Before I really had a chance, broke, and beat and whipped.
    Sometimes I sit alone at night and try to fight the curse.
    My reality is a blackened hell, you tell me which is worse

    I trust, I lie, I call to arms, I fight the nameless swarms.
    I hurt, I cry, I try to charm, I fall to that, I've sworn.

    This pressure seems to break my back, but still I pile it on.
    I am my curse, so which is worse; This hell -This life-, too long.
    Pray to your god I beg you, pray to save my soul.
    My life is black and empty
    I wish it, with love, was full.
  6. I forgot how bad it hurts to feel
    I hate you day by day
    I forgot how bad it hurts to feel
    Inside I'm black and grey
    I forgot how bad it hurts to feel
    In love we fell somehow
    I forgot how bad it hurts to feel
    I want a way out now
    I forgot how bad it hurts to feel
    Please take it all away
    I forgot how bad it hurts to feel
    I hate you day by day

    Paranoid and jealous

    This self created hell inflicts, a world in my head exists.
    You lie and cheat and rob me blind, with everyone, my back behind.
    The time that we may spend apart, I paint a picture black and dark.
    No reason have you gave me, still, I dream and want to hurt and kill
    This fantasy is not a dream, the reality I made.
    When I said I'd give my life, it's the one that I create.
    I'm blinded by this fucking pain, I cannot shake the fact.
    I'll never know the truth and so I paint the picture black.

    At time I rise, but always fall, back in the ways I've made.
    Deeply scarred you rip my heart, I pray for an early grave.
    Take a trip inside my head, but please don't stay too long
    My worst of foes, they'll never know, even them I'd not wish this on.
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