No, This isn't what you think. If you're thinking that I've lost my resolve in my own life, you'd be mistaken. ******* A dear close friend of mine took his life on Monday... it is now Saturday... I loved him. I will be honest, I don't think I ever truly accepted the fact that he rejected me on situational basis... I moved on as best I possibly could... He was important to me. He was a brother to me, and then some. He was a drinking buddy, he was my white knight when I needed rescuing, and my house was his safe haven. He was the only person I know who could stop me when I was rampaging mad by hugging me or kissing my forehead. His name was Jon. His birthday was three days before mine. I wanted him to meet people from Iwaku with me when he got out of rehab. This isn't, however, a memorial to Jon either. This is about the act of suicide. This is about the bonds that are broken. The pain that is wrought. The emotional disturbances. This is about suicide and threats of it. ********** I've helped quite a few people in my life avoid killing themselves. I've talked to even more while emotionally unbalanced and helped stabilize them. This is the first time I've actually lost someone in RL to it. And it's a big issue to me. It helped put things in an odd perspective. 1. When on a forum and feeling down or feeling like you're not getting enough attention, or if you feel the world is ending: Take a step back. Try to relax. Take deep breaths. We're just a forum. We can't dabble in this all that much because of legalities and blame if shit hits the fan. It's not to be mean, it's logical. 2. When truly upset, do NOT grab for drugs, alcohol, or anything else that might alter your moods or influence your mental state. It won't help, and it has the possibility of tilting your mind towards an option you would never choose if not for those items. 3. Take a "Mental Health Day". Relax for a bit. Get things in order. Just stay away from stressors for a while. I love you all.