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Meijin looked at the damage she had just caused. She had probably just ruined all of the chances to become friends with some of the group that she was going to study magic with. I just took my first impression and sent it flying out the window. People probably think I'm crazy and they probably think that I'm so weird... It wouldn't surprise me if they did. I mean... After that entire situation just happened... And I used the word 'girlfriend'. WHAT WAS I THINKING?! We haven't even gone on our first date and we haven't even really gotten to know each other yet! I bet Astra hates me. She probably hates me for a lot of reasons. Probably because I'm crazy, incompetent, unable to control myself in public, stupid, and-
"Nonna didn't do anything like that to me. We are just starting to become friends and I want that. So please, don't say anything unreasonable things like that."
Meijin came back to her senses once she heard Astra say that. No. Astra wouldn't hate me. She might dislike the way I act, but she wouldn't hate. She doesn't enjoy having to fight people, but it's a necessity in the world of mages. Astra's being considerate and I'm taking it and twisting into what I want it to be. I guess I want it to be love, but... Right now that doesn't matter. I need to apologize. Meijin looked Astra in the eye. "I... I know, it's just that..." She shook her head, trying to think of the right words. "I... I'm sorry. I'll try not to misunderstand. It's just..." I should explain what happened with Fuko. Or be somewhat general about it. It might make her pity me, but... She might need to know where all of this hostility is coming from. Meijin grabbed Astra's hand and pulled her to where she believed no one could hear. "Astra, I'm really sorry, and I know that I've been doing some things that are probably going to distance me from you. But... I..." Meijin clenched fists in both of her hands and she felt tears welling up in her eyes. "Something happened a long time ago. Something I can't forget. And... I'm worried that something like that might happen again, so... I... I don't want to lose what we have." Right then, Meijin started to cry. "Our friendship, love, whatever it is. I want to keep it, so I'm sorry for misunderstanding and... I'm sorry that I'm being so selfish asking for something like this. I'm sorry for being such a complete idiot. I'm sorry for being so completely reckless. It's unacceptable and I feel horrible. So please forgive me." Meijin looked at the ground for a second before looked back at Astra with tears streaming down her face. "Now... Let's go find a pair to fight. It should at least help us get our minds off this situation." Meijin looked desperate to leave. She didn't want to make anyone else unhappy and she was sure while Nonna was around, she was going to do something reckless. I'll have to go apologize to everyone later today... I did something very unacceptable and very rude. I just hope that Astra will understand my need to get away from this and focus on something else right now.