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It's a weird feeling, but, sometimes I just feel so... two-dimensional. I feel like it's so easy to predict what I'm going to say half the time. Like, someone could easily create a Tumblr ask blog about me responding to questions and they'd probably still be pretty accurate. Because I feel more like a character than a real person.
I always tell people that exact same backstory about not receiving an ADHD diagnosis until I was 16 and how my life got so much better after I tried medication. Like, there are no other important events in my life that are worth talking about. That's my backstory. Or at least that's what it feels like. I talk about ADHD so much in general that, again, it just makes me feel flat -- like everyone already knows these characteristics about me and just rolls their eyes when I bring it up again. Like I'm a badly-written canon character in a fandom RP in which a complex and interesting character has been boiled down to just two little character quirks that just get brought up over and over.
It's the same thing with my interests. I talk about Doctor Who, the Beatles, Pokemon, and Steven Universe. I assume that everyone just kind of expects that of me (well, maybe some things on that list moreso than others). And sometimes I wonder why I tend to take it so personally when I see someone criticize one of those things or just state that they don't like it, and I guess it's because... I'm so two-dimensional that stuff like this manages to become such a huge part of my identity, and it feels hard to not take it personally.
And then, like... I guess there's also the fact that I GM Fandomstuck and I talk about how I'm so proud of my GMing skills and how all my RP's are so long-lived, but that also just feels so predictable and 2D... anyone who posts a thread in GC or RP Discussion asking about long-lived RP's or what RP's you're proud of already knows what I'm going to say.
*sigh* Just some thoughts I've been having lately... I know it's such a weird thing to be upset about, but, I've been thinking about it a lot...
I always tell people that exact same backstory about not receiving an ADHD diagnosis until I was 16 and how my life got so much better after I tried medication. Like, there are no other important events in my life that are worth talking about. That's my backstory. Or at least that's what it feels like. I talk about ADHD so much in general that, again, it just makes me feel flat -- like everyone already knows these characteristics about me and just rolls their eyes when I bring it up again. Like I'm a badly-written canon character in a fandom RP in which a complex and interesting character has been boiled down to just two little character quirks that just get brought up over and over.
It's the same thing with my interests. I talk about Doctor Who, the Beatles, Pokemon, and Steven Universe. I assume that everyone just kind of expects that of me (well, maybe some things on that list moreso than others). And sometimes I wonder why I tend to take it so personally when I see someone criticize one of those things or just state that they don't like it, and I guess it's because... I'm so two-dimensional that stuff like this manages to become such a huge part of my identity, and it feels hard to not take it personally.
And then, like... I guess there's also the fact that I GM Fandomstuck and I talk about how I'm so proud of my GMing skills and how all my RP's are so long-lived, but that also just feels so predictable and 2D... anyone who posts a thread in GC or RP Discussion asking about long-lived RP's or what RP's you're proud of already knows what I'm going to say.
*sigh* Just some thoughts I've been having lately... I know it's such a weird thing to be upset about, but, I've been thinking about it a lot...