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The Alchemist
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Well, I'm...not really one to talk to others about my feelings and stuff. If only because I don't really have a whole lot of people to talk to about this kind of thing. I saw this little counseling thread...and figured why the hell not. I might as well give it a shot, because I need advice...help, whatever you want to call it.
So. Ever since I got my diploma last summer semester, I have come to realize something.
I'm bored with life.
Before then, i was just coasting along, going with the flow. Just thought that "hey, I'm doing good so I'm pretty happy" but then, I got my diploma, did everything on graduation and everything, and I thought it'd be the best day of my life. That'd I'd feel like I actually accomplished something, but no. I was handed the piece of paper and all I felt was "...what now? is this it?" I just felt as I always did. I felt...nothing. Just 'Meh'.
And on my way home, I realized that this entire year I wasn't content, I was bored.
Literally, everything bores me. Nothing is fun. I can't enjoy anything any more. These days, it's simply find someway to pass the time without ripping my brains out out of boredom. Depressed? Maybe, I don't think so, but it's possible. I'm not cutting myself or doing other thing like that. I like living, even if right now Its like...I don't have any direction in my life or know what the actual hell i'm doing.
I dunno why, but everything has just begun to seem so...meaningless, in the end. Like, what's the actual point of doing anything? Its not like anything *I* do will ever matter in the grand scheme of things.
It's not because I've failed and given up. Certainly I've failed but, failing is all part of the learning process. I've failed plenty of times and moved on and kept practicing.
....I just...I'm not exceptionally good at anything. I'm not passionate about anything, something I would pursue even if I wasn't so good at it. Sometimes, it feels like...I'm living out of habit. Just...living for the sake of living. And even now, I'm kinda...I guess maybe grown bored of that too. The semesters already start and I've already practically given up on my classes.
How...how do all of you do it?
How do I...enjoy life? How do I find something I like doing? Because right now, everything is just so...dull. Friends, family, class...everything, is just dull, boring, and pointless...so, grey and colorless.
How does someone enjoy something? enjoy life? Do I need friends? Because I don't have a whole lot of those. Would moving out of my parents house work? Because I would if I could, but I don't have money for that. Do I need a significant other or something? Would that help? Because I've never dated before. I don't like most people in real life. I find most humans annoying....
Do I need a psychologist? Because I don't exactly have the money for a good one...
/semi-rant asking for advice post over with.
And uh, please, take this seriously. I'm...quite sensitive about this stuff....this took a lot of hesitantly hovering over the create thread button to post....
So. Ever since I got my diploma last summer semester, I have come to realize something.
I'm bored with life.
Before then, i was just coasting along, going with the flow. Just thought that "hey, I'm doing good so I'm pretty happy" but then, I got my diploma, did everything on graduation and everything, and I thought it'd be the best day of my life. That'd I'd feel like I actually accomplished something, but no. I was handed the piece of paper and all I felt was "...what now? is this it?" I just felt as I always did. I felt...nothing. Just 'Meh'.
And on my way home, I realized that this entire year I wasn't content, I was bored.
Literally, everything bores me. Nothing is fun. I can't enjoy anything any more. These days, it's simply find someway to pass the time without ripping my brains out out of boredom. Depressed? Maybe, I don't think so, but it's possible. I'm not cutting myself or doing other thing like that. I like living, even if right now Its like...I don't have any direction in my life or know what the actual hell i'm doing.
I dunno why, but everything has just begun to seem so...meaningless, in the end. Like, what's the actual point of doing anything? Its not like anything *I* do will ever matter in the grand scheme of things.
It's not because I've failed and given up. Certainly I've failed but, failing is all part of the learning process. I've failed plenty of times and moved on and kept practicing.
....I just...I'm not exceptionally good at anything. I'm not passionate about anything, something I would pursue even if I wasn't so good at it. Sometimes, it feels like...I'm living out of habit. Just...living for the sake of living. And even now, I'm kinda...I guess maybe grown bored of that too. The semesters already start and I've already practically given up on my classes.
How...how do all of you do it?
How do I...enjoy life? How do I find something I like doing? Because right now, everything is just so...dull. Friends, family, class...everything, is just dull, boring, and pointless...so, grey and colorless.
How does someone enjoy something? enjoy life? Do I need friends? Because I don't have a whole lot of those. Would moving out of my parents house work? Because I would if I could, but I don't have money for that. Do I need a significant other or something? Would that help? Because I've never dated before. I don't like most people in real life. I find most humans annoying....
Do I need a psychologist? Because I don't exactly have the money for a good one...
/semi-rant asking for advice post over with.
And uh, please, take this seriously. I'm...quite sensitive about this stuff....this took a lot of hesitantly hovering over the create thread button to post....