I read it, and it's funny @Brovo had absolutely nothing to do with my rant, and yet I was completely and utterly moved by his apology. And then the strangest thing happened. Other people started apologizing too! I started thinking to myself, wow I really was overreacting a bit to this. Then I was going to post my own apology as well. Till I found out I couldn't, because somebody started drama and the staff like body slammed the thread into a locked up state, because once again, people didn't avoid stepping on peoples toes and may have pissed people off. I don't know what the drama was. I didn't read that far into it, I got pissed off because I couldn't jump on this apology train. I was genuinely moved by the way it started out. So here it is. I will post my own apology thingy right here.
The first I will apologize to is
@Shadow I made a point of trying to terrorize you, because I was butt hurt because you were just being honest with me. I found people who also didn't like you and I made a big joke out of you. There were memes made just to make fun of you. I purposely said things to piss you off. I made jokes about you with your friends. I even went as far as to try to make you feel worse knowing that a relative had passed in your life. I belittled you and pointed fingers at you like it was your fault, when really you just wanted to be left alone, but I had some sort of revenge thing against you. I'm sorry. I was a cunt. You may have done some shitty things, but it was nothing compared to what I did. I am very sorry.
@Rain of the Night, I know that you are not entirely angry with me, but you also need an apology, because well I put you in some pretty hard situations, that while yes it was based around role play it effected you out of character. I'm sorry. I should not have gotten angry with you over little things that could easily be let go, I should have respected your characters and I should have respected you, even though I did quite the opposite multiple times. I apologize for the disrespect I have given you.
The staff of Iwaku, I should apologize to you for calling you power hungry in a moment of anger, I know you are not, that you are simply doing your jobs. While I may not agree with what you do. I may not agree with your choices, it doesn't mean that you are trying to be like, BOW DOWN TO MY POWA! I've had this happen on other sites. And you are not the dictators that the other sites where. Not saying you're all perfect. You're only human. I know what you're trying to do is for the good of the community as a whole instead of the good of one. Just remember, we are not a one size fits all community. That being said, I'm sorry for attacking you in my own anger.
The countless role players that I've promised to role play with and then didn't. Sorry, life happens. I should make more of an effort to give you guys time, and I shouldn't just forget about you all and go on as if nothing happens. I'm sorry to have forgotten you! I'll make an effort to remember and devote more time to you.
The inn regulars in general. I know Rain of The Night got his own apology but I believe I effected him outside of the inn as well. So anyway, I'm sorry that I have made you put up with my moody bitchiness, and I'm sorry that I used your characters in a twisted different world for my own benefit. I should have spoken to you about the role play first, sometimes though, I let my mind run away with me and I try to spice things up and utterly shock everyone! But next time I have something that has any affect on any characters but my own it will be brought up directly with the ones it would involve.
And to the rest of Iwaku, I know we are not a one size fits all community, however I decided to post a rant about being angry with the way things have become. I blamed everyone else! I mean yes, I do not like that I have to avoid peoples toes, but I kind of like having people respect me and my opinions too! While yes I do think that things around here could change, and that people are forced to bottle up things more often then not because of fear of pissing someone off or breaking some rule or get into a passionate argument, but hell I am passionate about a lot of things and in the heat of the moment I don't like to drop it when I feel my point has not been made, but the point is I blamed you instead of taking a look in the mirror first, and I am sorry!
And lastly, I would like to apologize to myself. Yes myself. Because I have let this build up inside of myself for too long to where it did blow up, when I could have easily taken steps to get all of that bottled up anger out before it blew up out of me. I am sorry self! We'll have to learn to work on letting my stress go with out bottling it!
-Flops over.-
Sincerely Razie!
The first I will apologize to is
@Shadow I made a point of trying to terrorize you, because I was butt hurt because you were just being honest with me. I found people who also didn't like you and I made a big joke out of you. There were memes made just to make fun of you. I purposely said things to piss you off. I made jokes about you with your friends. I even went as far as to try to make you feel worse knowing that a relative had passed in your life. I belittled you and pointed fingers at you like it was your fault, when really you just wanted to be left alone, but I had some sort of revenge thing against you. I'm sorry. I was a cunt. You may have done some shitty things, but it was nothing compared to what I did. I am very sorry.
@Rain of the Night, I know that you are not entirely angry with me, but you also need an apology, because well I put you in some pretty hard situations, that while yes it was based around role play it effected you out of character. I'm sorry. I should not have gotten angry with you over little things that could easily be let go, I should have respected your characters and I should have respected you, even though I did quite the opposite multiple times. I apologize for the disrespect I have given you.
The staff of Iwaku, I should apologize to you for calling you power hungry in a moment of anger, I know you are not, that you are simply doing your jobs. While I may not agree with what you do. I may not agree with your choices, it doesn't mean that you are trying to be like, BOW DOWN TO MY POWA! I've had this happen on other sites. And you are not the dictators that the other sites where. Not saying you're all perfect. You're only human. I know what you're trying to do is for the good of the community as a whole instead of the good of one. Just remember, we are not a one size fits all community. That being said, I'm sorry for attacking you in my own anger.
The countless role players that I've promised to role play with and then didn't. Sorry, life happens. I should make more of an effort to give you guys time, and I shouldn't just forget about you all and go on as if nothing happens. I'm sorry to have forgotten you! I'll make an effort to remember and devote more time to you.
The inn regulars in general. I know Rain of The Night got his own apology but I believe I effected him outside of the inn as well. So anyway, I'm sorry that I have made you put up with my moody bitchiness, and I'm sorry that I used your characters in a twisted different world for my own benefit. I should have spoken to you about the role play first, sometimes though, I let my mind run away with me and I try to spice things up and utterly shock everyone! But next time I have something that has any affect on any characters but my own it will be brought up directly with the ones it would involve.
And to the rest of Iwaku, I know we are not a one size fits all community, however I decided to post a rant about being angry with the way things have become. I blamed everyone else! I mean yes, I do not like that I have to avoid peoples toes, but I kind of like having people respect me and my opinions too! While yes I do think that things around here could change, and that people are forced to bottle up things more often then not because of fear of pissing someone off or breaking some rule or get into a passionate argument, but hell I am passionate about a lot of things and in the heat of the moment I don't like to drop it when I feel my point has not been made, but the point is I blamed you instead of taking a look in the mirror first, and I am sorry!
And lastly, I would like to apologize to myself. Yes myself. Because I have let this build up inside of myself for too long to where it did blow up, when I could have easily taken steps to get all of that bottled up anger out before it blew up out of me. I am sorry self! We'll have to learn to work on letting my stress go with out bottling it!
-Flops over.-
Sincerely Razie!
