This is something I have been mulling over for quite some time, ever since I was willing to admit to myself that I am indeed an atheist. On one hand, I absolutely hate keeping a secret as big as this from my parents and it's beginning to eat me up inside. But on the other, I dread what their response might be. I very much doubt that they would be ones to disown me or kick me out of the house, yet I am fill with anxiety at the very thought of telling them. I suppose it's because I've always been deeply afraid of disappointing my parents; after all, it's why I started college immediately after high school, even though I clearly wasn't properly prepared for it. To them, being an atheist is by far the most disappointing thing I could ever do/be. This fact is the very same reason why I spent so many years in denial of my atheism. Nowadays, I no longer have a problem with admitting I'm an atheist, but I still fear what would happen if my parents were to know. It's not that I don't want to tell them, I just don't know if I can. Or should, for that matter.