I don't normally like to talk about my problems or worries with anyone, not even close friends and family. It's just that I've never been that way, I'm always the one supporting everyone and helping so it's hard for me to talk about certain things. However I'm trying to change that aspect about myself so I'm not stressing or depressing myself as much anymore. Well I have this issue...about a year ago I was diagnosed with a ganglion cyst (or Bible cyst), there are two types: one that the cyst grows upwards and can be easily fixed with a simple smash from a heavy book or medicine. The second type is where the cyst grows roots and moves outwards from the joint. Mine is the second type and is located in my left wrist joint. Since finding out about the cyst, the roots have grown from my wrist to my elbow, it's pretty painful when the roots grow and creepier when I can feel it growing. I've tried the steroid regiment from my doctors and that only helped with the swelling, took an MRI suggested by said doctors and had a steroid injection directly into my wrist (they said it would help get rid of it). Sadly that didn't happen. Next step is surgery to remove the cyst and roots. Here's my dilemma...I'm scared to have it done, I know it's a simple outpatient operation and I will be required to wear a cast for a little bit and then splint and then brace. It's just that I've heard some stories about not gaining back the ability to use my hand and such forth. I'm a writer and it scares me to think that I won't be able to do that anymore or at least not as well because I lost the use of my hand. (Even right now typing this is taking forever because my wrist is hurting and making it hard to type) I've even thought about just living with the pain and what not but the downside to that is, if I continue to let the roots grow the doctors said that they could grow into my chest cavity and wrap about my heart causing more complications. I know the risks of getting the surgery and not getting it but I still can't bring myself to get the surgery done. I guess maybe I'm looking for a little bit of encouragement because I don't normally get any from friends and family when I do talk about my fears.