Ok, Reborn. Here's my resume:
MISCELLANEOUS Moody's Amazing RP List
Notice that there are a mass amount of roleplays under the spoiler? Those are dead. They ended for a variety of reasons, including partners losing interest, ghosting me, me losing interest, life taking over, deleted accounts, and possibly even my partner's actual death, for all I know. There are 123 dead roleplays listed, nearly fifty of which are from 2016 alone. I've been at this
on Iwaku for nearing on four years.
In contrast, I have 28 live roleplays, including one each from 2014 and 2015. I also have six
completed roleplays.
Take a moment to think about that. It means that I have experience, and I get results. It also means that I keep trying, and am persistent. I put in effort to make those three- and four- year old roleplays keep working and being fun enough for that kind of time investment.
However, I have failed. A lot. More than just the 123 roleplays listed, there are also those who never got a first post and roleplays from sites I was on before Iwaku.
That's a lot of failure. That's a lot of being abandoned. That's a lot of being told the roleplay wasn't doing it. That's a lot of people deciding that they for some reason cannot or will not play a story with me, or me deciding the same about them.
However, this isn't about me. Those are my credentials and why you should pay attention when I say: finding roleplay partners is tough. The emotional hurdles are daunting, and it takes a deep investment of time and effort, and sometimes, it's in vain. That's just how it goes, and no matter how perfect a thread or how amazing the plots, that's not going to change.
And that's ok.
For some, that just means getting back up, dusting themselves off, and getting back to trying. For some, it's reason to give up for the sake of their own well-being. The latter is a shame, but a person's mental health should come first. In its very name, roleplay is about playing—having fun.
It is with that play in mind, that fun aspect, that the attitude I'm seeing in your repeated threads and posts in them will not do anything to help your search.
People want to have fun, and a downer isn't fun.
You've garnered a reputation in those who see these threads, and that reputation will keep a lot of eyes away from them. I counted, and you've made seven threads about this or similar issues since you've joined. It's likely disheartening to any existing partners you have or any who are in discussion to you, and a huge turn-off to people who want to have fun.
Yes, people have looked at your search since you posted this thread, but you've also gained further negative reputation.
You need to decide to change your reputation, the sooner the better. Start taking part in writing prompts and contests. Become a voice of encouragement to others. Get a link to your search in your signature and start chatting in the OOC areas. Bring your optimism and your hope, and if you don't have them, fake it. I'm not saying to be dishonest, but to specifically look for the good until you find it, and don't give up on that.
You can alter how you think, and the more you have certain thoughts, the easier they are to have. Make a practice of seeing positives, and over time, it will become easier. It will get better.
Your reputation will get better, and people will feel they can better engage with you, making them in turn put their best foot forward to make something truly wonderful with you.
People don't and shouldn't RP with others out of pity. They play with others because it's fun—so make it fun.