RANT RANT Your Brains Out #98274

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Cosmic Fey

The Dragon Lord
Roleplay Invitations
One on One Roleplays, Private Convo Roleplays
Posting Speed
Several Posts a Day, A Few Posts A Day, One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
My Usual Online Time
I'm usually on at points through out the day. Some days I'm not due to various reasons, but I try to give my partners warning if I'm going to be away for more than a day or two
Writing Levels
Intermediate, Adept, Advanced, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Female, Androgynous, Primarily Prefer Male
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
I can be both I suppose; It really depends on the storyline and plot of the RP, but I will always do my best to help push the story along
Favorite Genres
Fantasy, Scifi, Modern, Magical, Horror, Romance, school-life... I'm really not picky as long as it has a good premise and plot.
Genre You DON'T Like
Furry, but that's about it really
Can't figure out if I'm legitimately sick, or if it's stress

Either way, I would like the random bouts of light headed-ness to go away

Also, subconscious, these really fucked up dreams need to stop, kthnx
 

Greenie

Here in the Void
SECURITY DEPARTMENT
DONATING MEMBER
Posting Speed
Slow As Molasses
Writing Levels
Beginner, Elementary, Intermediate, Adept, Advanced, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female, Androgynous, Primarily Prefer Female
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Passive.
Favorite Genres
Fantasy, Supernatural, Horror
Genre You DON'T Like
Yaoi
Stress and anxiety really getting to me. Oh so fun :"D
 

Kat

be kind
Roleplay Invitations
Not Taking RP Invites at this Time
Posting Speed
One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
My Usual Online Time
Varies
Writing Levels
Advanced
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female, Primarily Prefer Female
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Passive-Aggressive
So, it looks like instead of repairing my car, it's getting totaled instead. They found damage on the inside from the car crash I had, so the cost of repair is now more than $6000. Bye bye pretty volkswagen. I'm sorry I damaged you. :(
 

Nemopedia

Smile of a friend, heart of the enemy
SECURITY DEPARTMENT
Roleplay Invitations
Group Roleplays, One on One Roleplays
Posting Speed
Slow As Molasses
My Usual Online Time
GMT +1/2 | CET/CEST | Random, mostly on my phone
Writing Levels
Intermediate, Adept, Advanced, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
No Preferences
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Both, depending how much there is going on already.
Favorite Genres
Tragedy, Psychological, Historical, Steampunk, Mystery, Thriller, Sci-fi, see tag list for more...
Genre You DON'T Like
Romance
I want an opt-out button for adulthood. Pls. Thx.
 

Scripturient

Lover of all unrequited shippings
Roleplay Invitations
One on One Roleplays
Posting Speed
Speed of Light, Several Posts a Day, A Few Posts A Day, One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
My Usual Online Time
Anytime during the school day
Writing Levels
Advanced, Prestige, Douche, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Female, Primarily Prefer Female
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
I like being the boss lady, and I am slightly obsessive, so I guess you could call me aggressive.
Favorite Genres
Modern, Futuristic, Paranormal, Fantasy, Medieval, Romance, Horror, pretty much everything.
Genre You DON'T Like
Not the best at sci-fi...Anything related to Twilight, Fifty Shades, and most anime.
Going to look at four houses today. Yes, four fucking houses and I'm not crazy about any of them. It's really starting to piss me of that all the houses I like we can't get because they either won't pass inspection for little things, or they're not appraising for the price the seller is asking for. I swear I'd have an easier time plucking every single hair out of my head with a pair of tweezers. It'd probably be less painful too...
 

Navuso

The silence is deafening
Roleplay Invitations
Group Roleplays, One on One Roleplays, Private Convo Roleplays
Posting Speed
Speed of Light, Several Posts a Day, A Few Posts A Day, One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week
My Usual Online Time
Sporadically throughout the day. If not at a computer, then from mobile when I can be.
Writing Levels
Intermediate, Adept, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female, Androgynous, Primarily Prefer Male
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
More passive than aggressive
What a wonderful dream to have on top of already feeling horrible and like I'm the worst damn person alive :/

Dreaming in third person, standing over your own body where your throat was slit is bad enough. But for it to have been a suicide and then watching around to see if anyone would care enough to even come over and check, or to call the emergency number, or anything else? That's even worse. Especially when I was dead on the side of a busy street and people were literally walking less than a foot away to get around the bloody mess, yet nobody stopped to even check anything. Nobody cared.

I'm getting tired of feeling like everything I do is wrong or worthless. Not just with my family, but towards my friends and my RP partners on here. I'm getting to the point where I feel like everyone actually dislikes me and only RP with me because they will put up with me in order to write the stories that they want to write. I know this isn't true, especially as I keep finding it harder and harder to reply to everyone in a timely manner (after all, if they only put up with me because of the stories, they wouldn't be willing to wait a month or so on a reply TT_TT), but that doesn't stop the feeling from sinking in.

The friends that I can rant to are no longer there for me. Not because they aren't there, but because I feel like any complaint that I have about my own life is just another excuse for them to drop me and leave because I'm just an absolute mess. So something that should take the stress off my chest so that I can get a single breath of fresh air winds up crushing a heavy weight on my chest and suffocating me, instead. Yet, I still want them to come to me with their problems so that I can reassure them and whatever. How screwed up is that? I don't feel like they'll be there for me, but I feel like I really want to be there for them...

I am not entirely sure why I have reached this point, and I really don't like it. No matter what, it seems like I'm going to stand alone or fall alone. Nobody will be willing to soil their hands in order to even check that I'm alive or to call for help if it's needed. Is this really how things are? Or am I just viewing it this way through the dark shroud?

I'm really hoping that it's the latter, since if that's the case, maybe things will feel better in another month or so. I can only hope.
 

Cosmic Fey

The Dragon Lord
Roleplay Invitations
One on One Roleplays, Private Convo Roleplays
Posting Speed
Several Posts a Day, A Few Posts A Day, One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
My Usual Online Time
I'm usually on at points through out the day. Some days I'm not due to various reasons, but I try to give my partners warning if I'm going to be away for more than a day or two
Writing Levels
Intermediate, Adept, Advanced, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Female, Androgynous, Primarily Prefer Male
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
I can be both I suppose; It really depends on the storyline and plot of the RP, but I will always do my best to help push the story along
Favorite Genres
Fantasy, Scifi, Modern, Magical, Horror, Romance, school-life... I'm really not picky as long as it has a good premise and plot.
Genre You DON'T Like
Furry, but that's about it really
Please, please, please just let this be a bad day and an overreacting immune system and not like, the flu or something.
 

GrunkleLogic

Destroyer of Worlds, Madman of Iwaku
Roleplay Invitations
Private Convo Roleplays
Posting Speed
Several Posts a Day, A Few Posts A Day, One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
Writing Levels
Intermediate, Adept, Advanced, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female, Transgender, Androgynous, Primarily Prefer Male
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Both Depending on Partner and Circumstances
Favorite Genres
Scifi, romance, slice of life, horror, slice of life
Genre You DON'T Like
Cannon, black & white morals
Alright, fuck you.

I have a TBI (Traumatic Brain Injury), so I really struggle to talk and remember anything. I stutter and have seizures. I can't control it. It is very difficult for me to remember names and faces, so when I match a name up with a face it feels like a good day. But today, however, that fucker made it feel so degrading.

No, I don't use drugs nor am I on them. I am on heavy pain killers but not loopy today. Suggesting that I stay off drugs because I simply couldn't remember your fucking name isn't just inappropriate; it's invalidating and puts another brick in the wall for me.

It wasn't funny, you arrogant asshole.

People like you are the reason I am so distrustful of people.
 

Shiri

Artist in Writer's Clothing
Roleplay Invitations
Not Taking RP Invites at this Time
Posting Speed
One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
Writing Levels
Intermediate
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Primarily Prefer Male
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Either is fine.
Favorite Genres
Fantasy, Scifi, Modern, Historical, Horror, Romance, Magical, Yaoi, Supernatural, Adventure
Genre You DON'T Like
Sports, PWP, Realistic War, Western
Everyone wants my attention and know-how and I just can't. It's too much. Give me one thing at a time and we can talk.
 

RJS

Already getting hyped for the fiesta!
Roleplay Invitations
Group Roleplays
Posting Speed
A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
Writing Levels
Intermediate, Adept, Advanced
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
I'm often fairly passive, but I have no trouble being more aggressive if I know that I won't be stepping on other people's toes or upsetting anyone by doing so.
Favorite Genres
Fantasy and SciFi are the two genres I most enjoy. I absolutely adore Dark Fantasy/Dark SciFi, and I quite enjoy RPs with at least a facet of comedy in them too.
Genre You DON'T Like
Not really into pure Romance (although I don't mind it being present as part of a bigger story). I don't mind sexual content, but I'm not a fan of RPing a sex scene in its entirety.
Well fuck today to hell and back with the sharpest, spikiest implement in existence.

It would have been easier if it had been like this from the beginning. If I'd been shifted into the disciplinary system from the get go with zero support or promises thereof. At least then I wouldn't be feeling so crushed. I feel like the words I said have been twisted against me and used to wrap me up and sink me to the bottom of the fucking ocean.

Don't tell me that you'll implement the recommendations of the people you sent me to see, and then come out with what is functionally a big fat fuck you. The best you can do is knock a lesson off my timetable for two weeks? I missed two weeks of work because I wasn't coping, because my anxiety was amplifying all the stresses of what can be a stressful job. My counsellor convinced me that a phased return would be helpful. This wasn't even something I initially wanted, but she got me to see how by pressuring myself to keep going and insisting that I should be able to cope that I was making myself worse.

That helped. I was feeling better. I could see the logic in what she said. And now? Now I don't have to tell myself what I should be able to manage. Because you're doing it instead. With one 5 minute meeting, you turned what had been a supportive sequence of meetings into something that makes me feel like a fucking failure.

And now I have yet another meeting, this time a formal one, to look forwards to next week. I'm in two minds as to whether to call my union and get advice on how to approach it, or go in there and try and get fired so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore.

Up until today, I wanted to go back to work. Now? I'm fucking terrified. Thanks for reducing me to a shaking crying mess. I'm just glad I managed to hold it in until I got home so you wouldn't get the satisfaction of seeing it yourself.
 

Scripturient

Lover of all unrequited shippings
Roleplay Invitations
One on One Roleplays
Posting Speed
Speed of Light, Several Posts a Day, A Few Posts A Day, One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
My Usual Online Time
Anytime during the school day
Writing Levels
Advanced, Prestige, Douche, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Female, Primarily Prefer Female
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
I like being the boss lady, and I am slightly obsessive, so I guess you could call me aggressive.
Favorite Genres
Modern, Futuristic, Paranormal, Fantasy, Medieval, Romance, Horror, pretty much everything.
Genre You DON'T Like
Not the best at sci-fi...Anything related to Twilight, Fifty Shades, and most anime.
I find a house that I like, and my husband snubs it. He finds a house he likes that I don't, and he puts a contract on it. I've got to live there too! He's turning down a house with its own man cave. Not a room in the house as a man cave, but an entirely separate building for a man cave! It's got its own heat and AC and bathroom! But no......he says the paint is gaudy. It's not like we can't repaint the damn house!

Ugh...men....
 

Greenie

Here in the Void
SECURITY DEPARTMENT
DONATING MEMBER
Posting Speed
Slow As Molasses
Writing Levels
Beginner, Elementary, Intermediate, Adept, Advanced, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female, Androgynous, Primarily Prefer Female
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Passive.
Favorite Genres
Fantasy, Supernatural, Horror
Genre You DON'T Like
Yaoi
As if I wasn't already feeling downish today, a kid was literally crying about coming to class right outside the class door :"D Way to brighten spirits el oh el

I know, kids hate school. Still, as a teacher it's a little downing when you try your hardest to be the cool and nice sort and are met with D':.
 

LunaValentine

A smiling Face
Roleplay Invitations
One on One Roleplays
Posting Speed
Speed of Light, Several Posts a Day
Writing Levels
Beginner, Elementary, Intermediate, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Female
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
If you come up with the plot, I'm generally going to want you to take the lead. If I write the plot I will take the lead.
Favorite Genres
Fantasy, Romance, scifi, videogame, romance, pretty flexible really
Genre You DON'T Like
Yuri, Yaoi (mostly because I don't care for playing guys)
I'm so tired of stuff being shoveled on my desk. It's cute how anyone thinks I get any kind of choice in anything. At the very least the Map bullshit is getting off my desk. 1) this particular person NEVER RESPONDS TO ME ANYWAYS and 2) If they want me to lean a new module/add a HUGE chunk of new code I will NOT have time to learn how the fuck the maps work. Also I want to tell people to fuck off about language settings. I'm sick and tired of being the only person doing half of this shit. Where's this "team programming" that my boss was so intent on doing?! Nights like tonight are perfect examples of why I don't usually enjoy my time at home. Work emails stress me out. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just not cut out for actual working.
 

SkittlesAndSpike

Spekkun, Greenie's longest Roleplay Partner
COMMUNITY DEPARTMENT
DONATING MEMBER
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Group Roleplays, One on One Roleplays
Posting Speed
A Few Posts a Week
Writing Levels
Intermediate, Adept, Advanced, Prestige, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female
That feeling when you get siked out by your own terrible sleeping quality. I was falling asleep 4-5 hours ago with no problem but when I let it carry me off to dreamland thinking I don't need to take anything to help me out I only get about an hour of rest before I'm up and unable to fall asleep again >:TT. Happened to me last night as well, and the worst part is I can't even taking anything to help me snooze because if I do I might miss the start of the day.

Oi. What a long 4-5 months I have ahead of me. Least I can binge watch anime all night I guess :"D
 

Kat

be kind
Roleplay Invitations
Not Taking RP Invites at this Time
Posting Speed
One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
My Usual Online Time
Varies
Writing Levels
Advanced
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female, Primarily Prefer Female
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Passive-Aggressive
“Can I walk you out to your car?”

“No, I’m good.”

“I need to put my stuff up.”

“No, thank you. I’m good.”

.-.

When a girl says no, she literally means no. Don’t make me repeat myself.
 

Kat

be kind
Roleplay Invitations
Not Taking RP Invites at this Time
Posting Speed
One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
My Usual Online Time
Varies
Writing Levels
Advanced
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female, Primarily Prefer Female
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Passive-Aggressive
well got written up for not showing up for an 8 o clock shift... fucking christ. i said i could come in.

how did she know i was scheduled for eight

she said she didn’t even have the schedule in front of her
 
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Shiri

Artist in Writer's Clothing
Roleplay Invitations
Not Taking RP Invites at this Time
Posting Speed
One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
Writing Levels
Intermediate
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Primarily Prefer Male
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Either is fine.
Favorite Genres
Fantasy, Scifi, Modern, Historical, Horror, Romance, Magical, Yaoi, Supernatural, Adventure
Genre You DON'T Like
Sports, PWP, Realistic War, Western
I was woken rudely from a nap to answer a scam caller trying to piggyback off my internet. I am not happy.

"Hello, do you use Wi-Fi? I am from Microsoft and we see that there is unauthorized access to your Wi-Fi connection. We can remotely deal with the problem if you are near your computer."

I just wanted a nap. Not to deal with this shit.
 

Fish

Can't Swim. Kind of drowning.
DONATING MEMBER
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Group Roleplays, One on One Roleplays
Posting Speed
A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
Writing Levels
Give-No-Fucks, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Primarily Prefer Female
I'm off my meds for the first time in a while and I'm going between "I quit everything" and pure joy too quickly to settle into either emotion.
 

GrunkleLogic

Destroyer of Worlds, Madman of Iwaku
Roleplay Invitations
Private Convo Roleplays
Posting Speed
Several Posts a Day, A Few Posts A Day, One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
Writing Levels
Intermediate, Adept, Advanced, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female, Transgender, Androgynous, Primarily Prefer Male
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Both Depending on Partner and Circumstances
Favorite Genres
Scifi, romance, slice of life, horror, slice of life
Genre You DON'T Like
Cannon, black & white morals
Joined a betta fish group on Facebook because I found out I'm a fish guy. I love my two boys and will show them off like Maes Hughes shows off Elicia.



So, I browse some of the posts and literally every other discussion was a damn fight. And I'm over here like, really? You all can't just realize you can call an admin to defuse that shite and move on?

Nope, everyone put up your dukes;

A betta fish has been insulted.​




 

GrunkleLogic

Destroyer of Worlds, Madman of Iwaku
Roleplay Invitations
Private Convo Roleplays
Posting Speed
Several Posts a Day, A Few Posts A Day, One Post a Day, A Few Posts a Week, One Post a Week, Slow As Molasses
Writing Levels
Intermediate, Adept, Advanced, Adaptable
Genders You Prefer Playing
Male, Female, Transgender, Androgynous, Primarily Prefer Male
Playing Style- Passive or Aggressive
Both Depending on Partner and Circumstances
Favorite Genres
Scifi, romance, slice of life, horror, slice of life
Genre You DON'T Like
Cannon, black & white morals
P.S

Rest In Peace Avicci