I'm not crazy. I'm not bi-polar; I believe everyone classifies as bi-polar. Everyone has dealt with depression, and everyone has been really happy.
But, I am in the throes of depression right now. I know I'll get out eventually, but man this sucks.
I'm 27. I've had a 4.0 average in school before graduation. But, I'm stuck in a dead-end job that I'll probably be at for the rest of my life. Already been there for 8 years. All the things I've wanted to do growing up, wanting to be someone or have a awesome job. Doing something meaningful. Bah, bullshit.
When I die, no one will read about me. Just a lowly peon, working everyday 12 hours a day for nothing. My only release being in writing and reading, being able to be a part of something grand and meaningful, but that just makes me more depressed because I know it's all make-believe. My fiancee, freakin' whore. Cheated on me with my friend, lied to my face. And had the audacity to ask me if she could keep the ring. "So I can remember us." Bitch, I know you'll just pawn it off for drugs. How did I ever fall in love with you?
Now, I'll probably never be in a relationship again, that crap happened 6 years ago and I'm still single. I don't even try to find a girlfriend, 'cause it seems 95% of chicks are freaking whores. Everybody is screwing everybody, and they still stay with each other. WTF? Why? And, people at work that I opened up to, they just laugh about it. "Got a girlfriend yet? No? You gay?" I get laughed at because I'm not looking for just sex, you dumb sons'a bitches. I wanna fall in love with a good girl who won't rip my heart out. Fat chance, living here in this bullshit town.
This ranting stuff is not helping, it's just making me more pissed off now.